Yesterday on September 7,2016 my life was forever changed! I began my day as normal… fixing Nick’s lunch, sent him on his marry way, working on the computer, marketing my book, posting and writing articles. At about noon I sat in front of my computer and began to cry! I cried and cried. I am truly unsure what I was crying about I was just being a big baby!!!!
I randomly received one of the sweetest text from my daughters new boyfriend and lifelong family friend, thanking me for being kind. I explained how appreciative I was and told him about doubting myself and thinking I made a mistake! His text in response to my blubbering and feeling sorry for myself: “Of all sad words of mouth or pen, the saddest are these: it might have been,” John Greenleaf Whittier.
You would think I would accept it and get over feeling sorry for myself!!!!! However, I cried some more, thanked him and began to pray. Continuing to fight the horrible selfish feelings of ‘poor me’ I called my mom. Oh wow, was she in for a big melt down! Of course she is always open to listen and help whenever needed, poor thing she has been putting up with me for over forty years!!
I proceeded to explain my emotional roller coaster through the outburst of tears, “Oh mommy, I have made a mistake! I miss my friends, all the kids, I can’t stand working on the computer, I can’t figure out how to create a good website, I want to make the world a brighter place, I want….IIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!! You see the trend? Yes it was all about me and I! I was not being grateful for my opportunities, husband, children, mother or anything else for that matter. I was having a selfish, horrible, insecure moment like none other!!!
What happened next changed my life FOREVER AND EVER…
I went to the grocery and was minding my own business. Everyone was so kind and helpful that I had already began to feel ashamed, for my outburst of negative energy. I saw this woman in a wheel chair, still beautiful and vibrant, but her husband was pushing her. She was probably about forty or so. I smiled at her and kept walking. (My little spirit was saying you are an awful person for feeling sorry for yourself, life could be worse!) I went to check out and they were behind me…I asked, “Would you like to go in front of me? You only have three items.”
She smiled and said, “No, I don’t get out much so waiting in line is okay.”
Really? Teena Drake, God is stomping all over you with messages. She didn’t say much else and he didn’t offer to explain. Although if you know me I want to know everyone’s story! But they did not appear to be open to discussion.
Then it happened…I turned around and they were gone! What? Where did they go? Did I offend them? I quickly scooted out to see if they were down another aisle or checkout line. Nothing. While I was trying to find this lovely couple, I passed a lady standing behind me! She was skin and bones and slumped over a bit, had a red bandanna on her head, and appeared to be alone. .
Her demeanor was frail, but sweet like a breath of fresh air. Even her aroma was exceptionally pleasing. She looked at me and said, “I know you…I watch your videos. You scared me to death on that bicycle riding down Coopers Bottom Rd.”
I have to admit I was stunned!
“Yes, I love to ride my bike and I love posting videos, but I do not do it all the time.”
“Why not? Your videos brighten my day! I laugh at you and sometimes go back to watch them! I think you should post all the time because people like me, who are sick and can’t get out a lot live vicariously through you!”
I began to give her excuses, “Sometimes my hair hasn’t been colored, I don’t have any makeup on, or I don’t think I am good enough. Have you seen how professional even the kids are on YouTube?”
I even explained to this woman how I worried about my blogging was not good enough!!!!!
(At this point someone needed to slap me, but she just grinned.)
Next she said, “Honey, life is too short. If you want to do it do it! Enjoy each moment and you have a gift. So go home write, post, blog and make videos. The world needs someone like you and you already make the world a brighter place just keep doing it!”
I teared up and checked out. The young man helping bag my groceries was asking me a question… I turned around to thank her and ask her name…She was GONE! I looked at the cashier and said, “Where did that lady go? You know the one I was talking to about my videos? The lady with the bandanna? Hello????? Where did she go I didn’t get her name so I can’t look her up!”
The cashier looked at me puzzled and said, “What lady? I am sorry are you okay? You look pale and are you crying? Did I say something wrong?”
That poor cashier was worried sick. I stood there and just cried. Looked around like I was lost! I felt like a dementia patient for a moment. Everyone was starring at me as I continually searched for this precious nameless woman who had changed my life forever. I calmly pushed my cart to the truck, unloaded and sat there with one last cry. However, this cry was a grateful one. I thanked God for his gift of love and made a grateful list immediately.
Now on September 8th, 2016 I want each of you reading this to know! You don’t have to be perfect. I may post videos of me walking the dogs or riding my bike or just something funny I thought of, but it doesn’t matter because I know I am helping someone else smile and laugh. Take time to laugh it is the most healing emotion you can have.
I love you all and God Bless!!!!
Written by: Teena Drake: the crazy lady who calls herself a pinkologist to make you laugh!