All of my new writings, vlogs and blogs are from an inspiration I received from a life changing event. However, I will admit I have to ask myself those WHYS????? when one of my babies are sick or feel broken. You know the why’s I am talking about. Why do good parents or any parents have to lose a child either in illness or tragic accident. Why can’t very good ‘parental’ candidates give birth to five, six and sometimes seven children? Yet, two people who love each other with all their hearts and are financially stable can not get pregnant? And my answer is…
I don’t know. All I do know is when my child is sick those questions rerurn. Then I have to stop, pray and meditate. Do I always receive my answers? 99.9% of the time I do, immediatly! That small fraction of time I have to wait a small amount of longer. That’s why I am sharing this message with all of you today. So the next time I write or say something that you wish were true becuase you don’t believe me, when I say your life is meant to live feeling good and having fun. Ready? Here it goes… (I am really nervous and almost sick to my stomach)…
Mourning I understand. However, living in a mourning state or a questioning state of why me? Why mine? Grrrrrr I hate this life ect…is similar to wishing you didn’t have that encounter, child, parent, grandparent, animal ALL PHYSICAL LOSS OF A LOVED ONE HURTS!
However, to not continue to live to be happy while you are here on earth is like saying I wish I didn’t have this experience because the good times did not out weigh the pain I I I I feel, (Yes a strong accent is on I) from losing you.
As I was writing this my good friend called and I took a short break. As I explained what I was about to write about she said, “Teena the best explanation will come out of your message. (Paused) Just remember to include if I die tomorrow and I am happy today then it’s been a good life.”
Please do not criticize or feel agitated with my message. I am going to warn you against reading it in my excerpt. But also right here…Do not read any further if you do not want to hear/read this message. Because I promise it is pure.
To my dear friends who have suffered great hurt, I am sorry, with all of my heart. The strong love we have for one another is absolutely incedible. I know I am a wife, mother, sister, in law, daughter, niece, grand daughter. I have suffered loss and I have questioned the why’s!!! I have felt pain physical, emotional, and all the rest as well. However, that is not my desire or my good feeling vibration. I choose not to allow those precious encounters throughout my life to become a burden, due to my own pain. Instead I choose to live based on the positive, funny, wonderful impression, learning experience, joy and pure ‘happiness’ they have brought to my life. And how dull my very existence would be without having those people/animals in my life.
My grandfather created the love I have for travel. Him and my grandma rode my BMW motorcycle to at least 40 states, if not more. My grandmother taught me songs to always warm my heart, how to can vegetables, so my family would never grow hungry, and how to follow my intuition or as she called it your gut feeling. Of course my most recent loss Matthew Reed took me by a shock. Although I and many others still mourn him today, I always return to his zest for life, his genuine kindness and his funny disposition always comes shining thru. Him finding a solution for every problem like the slide is too dry so to keep from burning your butt pee on it first!! I burst into laughter everytime I write that or look at their picture!
This message isn’t to hurt you, but to free you. And to free them. They love you!!!! But they want you to feel good and be happy!
Fast forward your life no matter what age you are right now. You are now 113! (13 is my favorite number). You ride around with your sparkly golf cart, around the whipper snappers who are 85 and above and you are enjoying life. And you hit a stump fly off your golf cart, hit your head and die. If you have very many desendents left, especially young ones, and they mourned over you year after year, instead of discussing all the funny times you had or great gifts you brought them while they were growing up. Instead it was almost like they wished you never existed because your death is all they can remember. Would you want that? Does that give you a good feeling?
I feel like such a broken record and trust me times like now, I understand the sadness and hurt all of us have endured. However, I must keep telling you over and over feel good right now. Feel inspired today and if you don’t feel inspired then stop and smell the roses or take time to meditate. Catch the feeling good frequency.
God loves you no matter what!!!