Hey yall it was my birthday and I want you to know I loved it! Yes, I am super grateful for the hundreds of good wishes, it reminds me of how grateful and blessed I truly am! However, I love birthdays for another reason!
They provide me with a little more knowledge, peace of mind and illuminate newly developed expertise!!! This birthday has been amazing. We began with Darion’s bday, the first of this week and although she was sick, we recreated happy times as we reminisced from years ago or even moments ago. We giggled, cooked, tried to shop and napped when she needed some recover time. (She is much better). It was kind of like a blast from the past when my entire world revolved around her. Now it is my birthday!
Everyone is preparing to go out for a day of Renaissance Festival. And create new memories. Then in two weeks Ashby is turning 21! I have decided October will be a revamp month and vacation month for LiveloveLLC. Because our birthdays begin October 2 and extend thru the 17th. But if I included my aunts, uncles and cousins it is the entire Fall season.
Oh well it doesn’t matter I LOVE THE Month of October!! This is my time to reflect, reorganize and recreate who, what, when, where, why and how!! In my life! I glance backwards to celebrate my accomplishments as well as my down falls (or valleys). I write down what I need to remember and relish in the good feeling moments. After all I have an entire year of new skill sets to add to my list of experiences and expertsise.
This year has been the most diverse, when I discuss feelings. I went from estatic, to zombie, confused, fearful, grateful and now blessed emotions. Since my birthday October the 8th marks not only my years of living, but it also marks the tenth month anniversary of my accident.
I sometimes wish you could take a sneak peek into my mind. Oh that’s right, you do, if you are reading my blog.
Many people, becuase they don’t know what to say, will make funny comments like, “I bet you look before you step off a curb now. Or wow, Teena, the nail salon was that close and you had walked so far, you were just at the wrong place at the wrong time.”
My response is and always will be, “Nope! I wouldn’t change a thing!”
Why? You ask? Am I crazy?
Maybe, but I will say this, I didn’t think I could have ever been happier. I truly didn’t see how limited I chose to live my life. I now see how in the past I focused on what is and created many more mountains out of mole hills. How do I know this? Because now I have had the unique opportunity to feel through the past and recognize how those fears, worries and times of hatred are diluted…to a watered down memory.
Yes, I still remember a very few of the negative stressful events that if brought up can create a ‘ugh’ emotion. However, they are far and few between. Sometimes, I bring them to my concious attention to prove to my brain the unimportance of the event!
Take time to reflect on a feeling good time and then try to bring it down. It becomes and effort because your feelings are like, “Nope, you can’t mess with me right now, I am enjoying this replay.”
Darion cracked me up, as I asked her to practice this simple but mind provoking task. “Think, sweetie, of a time in you paradigm that you remember feeling pure joy.”
She replied with story after story about the event and the emotional attachment. Her concious mind would try to block her and remind her of a not so good feelings or time. But it didn’t matter she would redirect quickly and carry on about how awesome the great feelings were after a special memory was activated.
If you are celebrating an exciting event, anniversary or birthday take time to reflect and grab a good feeling emotion to hold on to. Then you will be ready to receive the next gift of living a happy, full and fun life!