I wanted so badly to go for a bike ride today, before old man winter sets in for his long winters nap. I put on my coat, shoes and of course I packed Freddy the Flamingo. I peeked out of the patio door to ensure it was perfect weather, like the weather man described. So beautiful!
I went down the steps and twisted the lock to open the door into the garage. Twist, pause. Twist again, pause…nothing! It appeared I was locked in. (Yes, there was the other door to go outside, but for some reason I began to allow my mind to go CRAZY!) I thought what if this is Gods way of telling me to NOT go for a bike ride! I sat on the steps feeling and listening to my emotions. Do I really want to go for a bike ride? What if this is a sign? What if I received a sign on December the 8th and I didn’t listen? Oh the questions were racing through my head! I should have known it was a lesson for me to learn, so I can share with you, but of course I didn’t.
I text Eric and told him about the door not opening. Then I asked if maybe I should take it as a sign. However, he didn’t respond. I came back upstairs…this is silly, I thought. I went back downstairs and twisted, locked, relocked and repeat until it finally opened! Next, I met my neighbor. We introduced ourselves, chit chatted a few minutes and he looked at me and said, “Are you sure you should ride that bike today?”
What? YES! I should ride this bike today! I am going for a ride! I hoped on and pedaled off. However, I will not lie to you and tell you I was feeling free, having fun and riding on. Nope! I kept thinking of those signs, what if? What if, I had another accident? What if I never returned? Just crazy questions raced through my head. I continued to pedal faster and faster! It almost seemed I was trying to out run my crazy, silly imagination. Is it true? Are we warned before an accident? I have no idea! But I can report those warnings were not real, today. Rather a connection to my paradigm.
If you had experienced the same accident, you might feel the same way. Anyways, I made it back. It was a beautiful ride, the leaves danced along the path and the breeze was crisp enough to keep me from becoming to hot. When I arrived at home, I was so excited I MADE IT SAFE AND SOUND!
Shew! My legs felt like jello and my bladder was full. As I ran up the stairs I felt like a child who had accomplished something wonderful and couldn’t wait to tell mom. As I reached for my phone, it didn’t take long to figure out, it was gone!!! I ran to my computer and messaged mom, Darion and Ashby in hopes one would check their Facebook.
As soon as I heard Eric come in, I told him what was going on. We retraced my steps and he knew immediately what had happened. We got a good laugh out of him looking at me, listening to my events leading up to the aha! moment of it was placed in the cell phone case on his bike. You see, I was riding his bike. (He is trying to convince me to buy another bike with gears and I am not convinced).
It was a funny lesson for me. What did I learn? I learned that we all react differently to scenarios or events that occur, in our lives. Why? Based on our paradigms or past experiences. If we can ever see why we feel the way we feel, negative emotions may not become obsolete, but they can be minimized. Take the time to know what your mindset is, why it is what it is and tweak it to make you feel better. It is not always and actually it is unlikely, you will have a repeat of exact circumstances, to be conducive to the same results, in your lifetime.
For example: I can assure you I will not repeat stepping off a curb without looking down first. My brain recalls the incident and says, “Hey silly look before you step!”
Another example: My friend said, “I don’t want to be greedy, ever.”
I responded with, “You are fine today! The reason you worry about being greedy is because in your past you remember not having enough. However, when you recognize that was then and you do not struggle with those same issues. Therefore, you can leave you greediness behind now, because you are okay!”
Next time you think you are receiving a message, ensure the emotions are not a defense mechanism from a past event. How? It takes a little push, from you. Many people call it perseverance, but I would rather call it taking one step at a time. It is okay to have a little fear, just try not to dwell on it. Feel the emotional attachment, recognize why you have it and only you can decide whether you want to keep that feeling or rather let it go! For me I let it go and it feels terrific.