Ever had dejavu over and over again? Supposedly it means you have already lived that scenario, scene or conversation before. But isn’t it funny how we always stop and say, “Change it up! I don’t know why, but I am having a dejavu and I don’t like it.”
Have you ever asked why wouldn’t you want to relive it? Does everything from your past hurt you? Probably not. But it is human nature to fear the unknown. (Many of us stop the dejavu not because we have any idea the end result, but we are pretty sure we just want to move forward).
That’s what my day has been like is DEJAVU all day! I finally just stopped, sat down and began typing. You see I don’t want to dwell of what has been. I love my life and although, I have had a miraculous journey and healing over the past year, I am truly excited for the ‘next’ exciting portion of my life.
However, I guess sometimes a dejavu can be valuable.
For example: I began my morning a little later than normal. I felt a little depressed today. I wrote about it, felt better. Then it hit me…the repeat of a day one year ago. No it is not December 8th, one year from my mis-step, nor is it a rememorable day after my long ride home, to recoup and heal.
The only thing I can think, is it is Thursday, before our company party. Which is the day of the week, I tumbled to my life changing fate.
My dejavu throughout the day has been numerous. Last year, I was a little freaked out and depressed. Because of a long list of decisions I had made and I was losing sight of why. However, I was having a terrific morning that day and I had told everyone, how much I loved them before disappearing for about 6 months. (No, I didn’t go anywhere, but for 3 or 4 months the porch light was on, but no one was home. And for about 6 months or more I was a bundle of nerves).
However, for some reason I have had more dejavu or reflections than ever before. Some are reliving the before and immediate after. Yet other moments I have been cherishing all that I have learned and how I am not afraid any longer, to be me.
Different, spiritual, divinely gifted, happy, not perfect, dreamer, motivator, funny, kwirky, little ME!!!
I am no different than anyone else, I continue to shake all over and explain to someone, how they need to change the subject, it is a dejavu!
However, this dejavu I have decided to change, instead I am allowing my happy continuation! I am no longer looking for my happy ending. I am now living my happy journey. Yes, even those unexpected steps that take you by surprise, I don’t care to ever relive that step, but I am grateful for the plunge!
If you are having a Dejavu reoccur, pause, peek into it and see if you have a delicious learning opportunity to explore. Don’t linger, it’s not that you want to relive it, because not all of the events were pleasing. Simply, pause.
Next, return to this time, moment and allow your gratefulness to take over. Begin to list even the slightest Great things you have done or experienced today, yesterday or last year!
You deserve the best. Live for today. Yes, set a desire or goal and begin to move towards it. However, don’t become stuck in a ‘Dejavu’ Live the journey, take a side step, or a path least resistance. You got this! Enjoy your life!
Written by: Momma Teena