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Tony’s Letters

It was a cool Autumn day. The leaves along the hillside had began to change to their delightful tones of red, yellow, and burnt orange to decorate for the autumn season.

I had drove to town to ‘check’ Sunshine Messages post office box. With little to no expectations of finding a letter. It had been brought to my attention that ‘snail’ mail was considered a thing of the past, so why would I believe anyone would take time to write Sunshine Messages?

As I stood next to the recycling bin tossing one advertisement after the other into a sea of unwanted ‘junk’ mail, something caught my eye! A small, crumpled, letter. It was difficult to read due to the smudged letters on the outside. The address was correct…P.O. Box 173 Milton Ky. 40045. But it was not made out to Sunshine.

Hmmmm, I curiously flipped it back and forth attempting to decide if it was placed in the wrong mail box or if it was indeed a letter for Sunshine?

Leaving the rest of the rubbish behind, the letter went with me! It couldn’t have much in the envelope it was so small. It smelled of cherry cigars & tears. Who was this from? Without a return address, my curiosity was building more and more.

As I carefully opened the crumpled, envelope to read this mysterious note…I found 2 letters. They both had been ripped apart, tapped together, crumpled & tore several times. One, in particular, was extremly difficult to read. As I unfolded the first letter, I had to carefully pull pieces of tape apart in order to open it. It appeared that this letter was held together with tape & prayers.

The handwriting was messy & whoever had written this note must have been in a hurry!

“I am sorry I couldn’t take it anymore, I Love You All So Much. I do not want to hurt you. I am sorry daddy, I cannot be the star quarter back anymore. But know I Love You I really do Love You! I am So Sorry. Love, Tony.

Was this a joke? Who would send this to Sunshine? What do they want? The questions raced through my head!

Laying this note aside, I quickly opened the newer, less stained and damaged letter.

Hoping to find answers, as to why I have this worn, tattered, pieced together, smudged letter that made little sense to me! Who is Tony? And why is his letter in my post office box. The second letter read:

Dear Sunshine,

I have read your blog, watched your recordings & I am begging for your HELP!

You see this is my Son’s suicide note! I have wept many times over these worn & tattered pieces of paper. Begging & hoping to turn back time. Wondering how I can forgive myself for being such a terrible father and how I can forgive my son for not talking to me before he did what he did.

You are my last attempt. I have contemplated taking my life several times, even as I write this letter my desperation feels as if it will take me over. I have been put on antidepressants, spoke with countless counselors/psychiatrists, mediums and psychics.

I have a beautiful daughter and wife. However, I know they are growing weary of my depression.

My wife explained, two weeks ago, she had been thinking about leaving me. Not because she does not love me, but rather she cannot stand to see me in such a terrible state of mind and feels she cannot help.

They are the reason I continue to wake up everyday. I would ‘end it all’ if it weren’t for these beautiful ladies in my life. However, I love them so much and I realize how terrible the pain is when you lose someone to Suicide, that I cannot hurt them like that.

A friend of mine requested I try one last attempt to heal. She explained how you had assisted her when she had to say goodbye to her husband 2 years ago.

She told me how you eased her pain by providing her with Sunshine Messages. “If it weren’t for ‘Sunshine’ I wonder how I would have pulled through”, was her comment to reassure me you could help.

Therefore, I am writing to request HELP! In fact I have NEVER let go of his letter as I did to mail it to you. Yes I made a copy. However, this letter is his actual handwriting from the pen he wrote before he…

I am unsure if you can help me. However, I am Desperate! I am at the end of my rope! I do not have anywhere else to turn.

My address is included at the bottom of this note.

Here is what I would like to do. May I write a message to my Son, Tony and you deliver it?

Write back as soon as possible or email me.

Please, please, please do what you can!

Sincerely yours, Charles

I immediatly sat down to write him a quick note, explaining this might be beyond my capabilities. This was a great deal of responsibility and fear had come over me.

For example, what if I couldn’t assist him and he took his life, I would feel terrible. I suggested he call the Suicide Prevention hotline & return to his psychiatric care, immediately. My note was short & sweet, but definitely to the point.

I addressed the envelope and hurried off to return his and his son’s  letter. I ensured I would send him good energy and hoped he found his inner peace & forgiveness.

I sent the letter and washed my hands of that.

The following day, the lady. who had sent Charles my way, contacted me. “I hope you do not mind I sent you another person to assist in living his Best Life.”

She explained a bit more about his situation.

Apologetically, I told her how I wrote him back declining the opportunity to assist.

Although she was disappointed, she seemed to understand my decision. (Which was fear talking).

About a week had passed and I heard nothing more. I did wonder if I had made the best decision, I guessed he went on to seek assistance else where. I had already lost a great deal of sleep over his letters therefore, I feel that no news is good news.

Everything was back to ‘normal’ in Sunshine’s world!

Two more weeks had passed. My routine visit to the post office, continued to be standing at the recycling bin disposing of all the ‘junk’ mail!

As I tossed the last four Dish Network advertisements in the recycling bin I turned on my heels and begin to leave. Then I heard a sweet little voice , “Are you Sunshine?”

Funny thing is…I was on the verge of cancelling the post office box and focusing on texting or email. Maybe everyone was right? (I thought to myself) I mean this letter idea is not going to work. No one writes or mails letters anymore. My clientele was growing and everyone seemed to enjoy the text messages/emails, just fine. This P.O. Box was a waste of time…right?

I replied, as I looked up to see who was asking, “Yes, I am Sunshine. Why?”

A young lady in her early teens was standing there, staring at me with her hand outstretched holding a Pink envelope addressed to Sunshine.

“Where did you find that? Did I drop it?” I asked.

“No,” she curtly replied. Continuing to hold the envelope out, as if she was a little put out with me for not taking the letter.

The two seconds of silence were extremly uncomfortable. As I reached out to take the letter, she never seemed to blink or take her eyes off of me. I slowly attempted to take the letter and she pulled it back slightly, tilted her head, inhaled deeply, then in a snide yet calm tone, she asked, “Can you handle this? I helped you the first time because you doubted, but now it is up to you, Sunshine.”

“Okay, I do not know who you are nor do I understand what you are talking about, but if that is addressed to me…please give it to me.”

I took the envelope and as I read who it was addressed to…’Sunshine’, I was saying, “Thank You,” simultaneously.

Our conversation continued as I peered at the envelope with extreme curiosity. I was blabbing about my thoughts, inspecting the color and wondering if this young woman knew who it was from. As I began to ask, “Do you know who…”

I looked up to read her facial expression, attempting to infer her role in delivering this hot pink envelope. And…SHE WAS GONE! POOF! HAD VANISHED IN THIN AIR!

I quickly ran to the door, pushed it open looking for this young lady. I would never forget her expression and how she made me feel so strange. She was kind yet staunch. Cold with a twist of warmth.

Where did she go? Who was this young lady? She was not in the Post Office when I arrived…hmmmm where did she come from?

Startled and confused I left with the Pink envelope in hand! I couldn’t help but continue to look for the messenger. I wondered, where she came from and where she went. I was confused and filled with curiosity. What was she talking about, “Can I handle this and she helped me the first time?”

I have never seen that girl before, in my life! How could she have helped?

Maybe, the contents in this letter will answer some of my questions. As I carefully opened the letter I could smell a strawberry scent coming from the pink lined paper carefully folded and tucked into the nice neat Pink envelope. The letter said,

Dear Sunshine,

Thank you so much for my letter. It was if you had already received my letter to my son! I do not know how you did that, but your letter has changed my life! I cannot thank you enough. I hope you will have time to send some more letters. They assist me in forgiving Tony and I can make it through one more day. Thank you from The bottom of my heart, Sunshine! Your friend was correct in saying your messages can be described as magical. My only regret is that I didn’t write you sooner.

You see I have been mourning Tony for five years and until your letter, I have cried myself to sleep night after night, since the day we lost him! I have attempted to hide my sadness, but my daughter, who is now 15, begged for me to get help. She said she misses her daddy and she is beginning to feel hatred towards her brother because of it.

When she said she could hate her brother is when something snapped in my head! Was I actually HATING my son for doing what he did? I knew I Hated myself, but I thought my mourning was because I Loved and missed him so much. I do not want my daughter or myself to hate Tony.

Then, out of complete desperation, I wrote that first letter to you. I did not have any expectations that you would return a response nor if it would help me heal.

I am here to tell you that letter…Changed My Life! I still have a great deal of healing to do and am hoping you will continue to assist me. My daughter has already noticed a difference in me, in this short amount of time.

When she asked what I was ‘doing’ to heal? I replied with enjoying some Sunshine 🌞.

Thank You Sunshine for everything! My letter from my son was the best medicine. (Yes, I know it was from you, but it helped me so much and you even signed it the way he always did! Thank you!).

I have written him another letter and am sending it to you separate from this one. I hope you do not mind, I looked up your favorite color and am sending my letters in that color to ensure they do not become mixed up in the many other letters you receive.

Thank you, once again, for assisting me. I know you are extremly busy and I so appreciate you taking on my case!

One more thing… I made a donation to your PayPal, I do hope it is more than enough.

Thank you, Charles

I read his letter at least twenty times. I was puzzled & confused.

Didn’t I write him a letter explaining how I couldn’t help? Hmmmm…my mind was racing with questions. Who was the young lady? Who is Charles? And how did he receive a letter from his son, yet from Sunshine? I didn’t write it!

The next few days I felt quite intrigued. I went to the post office every day for five days…Nothing! Oh of course there were a few more pieces of junk mail, but definitely not a Pink letter addressed to Sunshine. I had mixed emotions. Some days I hoped a letter would arrive and other days I felt like it was a hoax. Then…

IT HAPPENED! All alone, no advertisements, other letters, nothing was in my PO Box except 1 hot pink envelope addressed to Sunshine!

Instead of smelling like cherry cigars and tears it smelled of strawberries and cream. I quickly retrieved the letter and practically ran to my car.

Recognizing, I should wait to read this at home…I tore it open, in the parking lot and began reading!

Dear Tony,

It is funny all of my therapist have instructed me to write you letters, but I refused. All this time I focused on your death and my own suffering. I am so sorry! Thank you for forgiving me and knowing how much I Love You!

I wish you didn’t have to go as early as you did, but I now understand a little better of your pain and suffering. I will try to keep my letters on the lighter side, but sometimes I May need to tell you about my sorrow. It seems to be a path to help me heal. I have been so angry with you for the past 5 years that I have missed out a great deal. I will try to do better. I Love You My Son! Thank you for taking the time to write back and letting me know you forgive me, for not being able to help you.

I must admit the young lady, Lindsey, has truly suffered a great deal. She blames herself for breaking up with you and everytime she sees Mom, Jessica or myself tears fill her eyes and she makes a point to hug us and tell us all she loves us.

I wish you would have held on a little longer. You would have recognized that the pain from the break up or from all the other pieces of your life, would pass.

Jeremy took your place as quarter back and he did okay. He is now attending Kansas State. He did not continue playing sports after graduation. However, before EVERY GAME…He would pull the team to huddle and shout over and over, “Win this for Tony!”

The year you passed they didn’t win a single game! But, Senior Year…We won STATE! With a great deal of tears! The team lifted Jeremy up and chanted, “WE WON IT FOR TONY!!!”

Your school counselor included you in her graduation speech and of course, so did the class president & your best friend Damon.

One comment was, “Tony’s body may have passed on, but his Great Big Happy Spirit guided us through to this day. Our final page the day we all spread our wings and fly. We hope you are smiling down on us and that we made you proud.”

Oh, how I have missed you! I am so sorry you regretted it the second after you pulled that trigger. I know how you feel, I have regretted many things the second you thought it was okay to leave us!

I will never ‘move on’ or forget you my Son! However, I do hope for more peace & understanding, especially now that I have your letter. And hope for many more to arrive.

Until next time, know that I Love You to the Moon & Back. I Love You for all eternity! I simply wish I could turn back time.

Love with All of My Heart, Daddy! 

At this point I can only infer what Tony had replied back with. How did this happen? What could or how could I have possibly sent a letter from his deceased son.

My mind could not calm down. I questioned everything. Yes, I Loved Providing Sunshine Messages, but did I lack the confidence neccessary to continue this? Hmmmm…my uncertainty turned into anxiety and I needed to pause for a mindful moment.

As I layed on my yoga mat and attempted to focus on my breath, I continued to see the young lady firmly holding ‘my letter’. And then her smirk on her face as she acted like I was irritating her! Her words swirled in my head, “Can you handle this?”

Who does she think she is? Questioning me? Who are you? And what if I cannot handle this?

My mindful moment was becoming a gripe session from all the events of the day. I tossed and turned until I slipped off into a afternoon nap.

Of course, my dreams included letters, request, snide remarks, people all swirling around and mixing together.

One message that seemed to stand out was, “Write him back.”

“Write Who?”

But the who did not seem to matter! I heard the message again and my response was extremely loud as I sat up, abruptly ending my nap, and shouted, “Write WHO?”

I sat at my writing station, grabbed an ink pen and began to write. To who? No one. I simply wrote words that came to me. Some made sense others did not. I simply continued to listen to my mind…Happy that I communicate some love enjoy little laugh more never put a period no ending just beginnings journeys with you I journey with you alot ventures tough I am help yes healing forgive all allow happy love your guy Tony

I read it 100 times. I questioned do I send this to Charles? It doesn’t even make sense. I mean I guess it does a little bit, but not really. Maybe I should edit it? Nope, that answer was clear. What did I do? I addressed the envelope to Charles I took a trip to the post office and I mailed it!

When Charles received the letter he immediatly emailed me…”Thank You, Sunshine!”

To be Continued: if you would like to read more of ‘Tony’s Letters’ Stay tuned because we are releasing this story one surprise at a time!

Livelove & Carry On!

Written by: Teena/Sunshine Drake!

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Suicide Survivor…How Sunshine Messages Evolved

It is now afternoon on December the 7th, 2018. I have done everything to avoid writing this blog post. I mean EVERYTHING from clean the dishes, take a short nap, meditate, I even worked out to STOP this post from being written. However, no matter what…it is what, it is and this heartfelt, deep, writing is much-needed.

Before I write any more, I must ask for your spiritual uplifting thoughts. For me as well as for you. This will be a posting that is like none other, I have ever written, but it is from the depths of my Valleys that I dare to share this story. My intentions are to inspire, encourage, motivate, and uplift you to live a full life. Not a humdrum life, but rather a spirit filled and led life. One of forgiveness, understanding, contribution, and LOVE above all else. If you will do everything in life including speak, teach, and be with LOVE in the center of your intentions, You will always LIVE and KNOW that you are loved, even in the darkest of valleys. For my part in your reality, I love you, I am so sorry, Please Forgive Me and Thank YOU! Thank YOU!

One year ago, I hosted my very first Happy Celebration! I spent the money to have food, a venue, invites, the entire ‘EVENT’ to celebrate the opening of my company Livelove LLC. I had great intentions, but as the flu reports rose and the snow began to blow, we were sure very few people would be venturing out. However, my friends, mom, and one man…did show. Therefore, the show must go on! I gave a shortened version of my speech/ seminar and the man who was ‘just passing thru’ stayed. After he enjoyed some snacks and listened intently he said, “You are on to something! Keep on telling this story. LOOK & SEARCH for people to tell your message to.”

I did not know this man it was our first encounter. He had a sweet spirit and was extremely encouraging. Later on my co-worker explained his circumstances and I dismissed the entire event. 

Until, today! I actually thought of this man two other times, throughout the year. Once was at a local pub, my husband and I visited one time, since we were back in town and the following day. 

You see this man’s words rang through my head the entire year. I would hear his almost appearing to be a plead, he would say, “Don’t quit sending out this message, you are on to something!”

When I mentioned seeing him out and about to my colleague, I was told some very sad news. This man had decided, planned, & completed SUICIDE! I began to weep as soon as I heard! 

Yes, I wept for the loss of another life. I wept for his family, children, and friends. But just as you are reading this and relating it to your own life, I was doing the same! I wept for my life! I wept in gratefulness that I didn’t follow through with my contemplations. During my deepest darkest valleys, I too could have been another statistic. Another lost soul, begging to find a BETTER FEELING. 

I can remember after my accident going to sleep at night and wishing to not wake up only to think the next morning how darn thankful… I did. I still cannot share with you all of my deepest valley times because my strength and new vibrations are focused on shining brighter. However, I can tell you I have been at my lowest…with a plan, process & all. Yet, I am so grateful I am a survivor! If you feel weak, depressed, and alone hold on tight to a happier color, a fun song or even a small compliment. You cannot imagine how many people who really do love you and I promise, “This feeling will PASS!” 

You are important to someone. I PROMISE! This particular man lost hope like so many others I know. And the truth is they themselves did not complete the act out of spite to hurt you, their loved ones. In fact, the complete opposite is true. Many survivors will tell you they did not go through with it because they feared of hurting others. Not the other way around. That means that people who completed the act, simply felt like your life was better off without them. And still, afterwards, they do not want you to feel guilty or avenge their legacy. Instead, finding your own happiness is what they desire most. Ensuring that you NEVER FEEL LESS THAN is their greatest wish. 

Fast Forward from a year ago and today. This year has been a blur to me. It has been full of changes, loopty loops, and flip arounds. As I reflect on 2018 many emotions have occurred, all beneficial. Sunshine Messages came about, close to the time the man I mentioned before, passed away. And today they serve many people. Whether they are struggling with Suicidal thoughts or dealing with other ‘life’ events. Sometimes they serve only to brighten someone’s day. 

Many people ask me what Sunshine Messages are and where they come from and my shortest version of an answer is, “As I lay in the bed day after day, I would pray for easement, understanding, & a brighter day. My heart would feel heavy for fear I was not ‘doing’ anything ‘worthwhile.’ I begged for answers. Why? Why did this happen to me? Why have you forsaken me? Was I so BAD that I must endure such torment and pain? What about him, her, or even them…their wretched ways. Yet they are allowed to carry on? Why? Why me?”

My Answer, “Because you know a better way. You understand the light and how to vanish the fright. Because you agreed to be a messenger of hope, happiness, and LIGHT! Because you were born with this gift and you needed to be reminded. Because you are you and now you see, it is time to let your visions FREE!”

My Response, “SO YOU had to break my leg, allow me to suffer, feel defeated, beaten & broken? I was on my KNEES (which hurt even more)! Begging for answers, yet nothing? My anger rises to the sky! MY QUESTIONS are SHARP and FIERCE! Hey HELLO, HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ME? I AM ONE OF THE GOOD GALS? I am trying to do as you ask, but dag on how much more can I take?”

My Answer, “Not much more, be still, be patient, & LISTEN. Enjoy each person. Enjoy each moment. Only speak from your heart what your true desires are. BE PATIENT!”

My response, “Still here! Waiting!

Me, “Hello?”

Me, “Are you there?”

Me, “Am I CRAZY?”

My Answer, “Only in a fun way. LOL. You are Sunshine! You are shinning BRIGHT! When you receive the message act. When you question…pause, be still, & listen. Perfection is not the goal, because it is a label. Rather uplifting, spirit-filled, happiness, and JOY now those are the GOALS!” 

FF today, YOUR SUNSHINE MESSAGE, “YOU ARE AMAZING! I am in AWE of YOU! YES, YOU! YOU are just like me, you are chosen to live a life full of joy, laughter, happiness, and love. Ask for what you desire. Live enjoying the blessings no matter how great or small! If you are struggling at this moment…feel the emotion and ask yourself ‘Why do I feel this way?’ I guarantee it is something from the past. Isn’t it time to LET IT GO? Not you or anyone else can reverse the past to assist us with the present! Goodness, everyone would change something if they could, instead think of how you want to feel tomorrow? How do you want to be treated? What does your life look like tonight, tomorrow, or next week? Guess what? That vision will come to fruition. If today is not a good day, hold on tight because tomorrow will be better. Perfect? Define it? If it is unachievable, then by all means, change your vision around until it fits perfectly with you! 

If you are like Teena and many others who are Suicide Survivors, take time to be grateful for this moment. Dwell on all the Beauty in your life that you would have missed had that Valley time ‘got you’. You are beautiful! You are AMAZING! YOU need to SHINE! Share your story. Ask someone if they need a little boost. Send out love for others. And take care of yourself too!

Thank you for allowing me to share this message with you! Sending you relief, awareness, understanding, love & a great deal of laughter. Because life is about having fun & DO NOT FORGET THAT! 

I attended a seminar about the prevention of Suicide a week ago and I learned so much. However, the most important lesson I have learned is, If you are worried about someone…ASK! Ask the question, “Are you okay? Are you suicidal?”

Lesson learned! 

Livelove

&

Carry On

Sunshine Messages/Teena Drake

 

 

 

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& just like that a blessing appears…

As my day became all messed up, YES…MY FAVORITE DAY of the week MONDAY! It began as normal, get up, shower, dress, go to work…you get the idea. Except, I am unlike most people. Monday’s are my FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK! Therefore, I never ‘work’ anywhere or do anything on Mondays that would disrupt my beautiful day of the week!

Today, was no different. My schedule had been a bit altered, but I didn’t mind. I decided to proceed forward with a huge smile on my face.

I played Jingle Bell Rocks at least 20 times, as I choreographed our next dance. I practiced and practiced, but something was not right.

Ever had those moments where you felt like bursting into tears & curling up in fetal position, only to feel sorry for yourself? It is a strange emotion.

As the music roared throughout the house, I pressed pause, to answer my mother’s phone call. We chit chatted for a few minutes and then it happened! (My poor mother, sometimes I know she wonders why she even called lol). I burst into tears and rambled out a bunch of silly crud, that was not true. Not towards her, but about me & my selfish moment. She provided encouraging words, as always.

After I hung up, I sent her a text of apology and appreciation. She always listens to me, even when I sound silly! However, mom didn’t reply. Instead I received a number for our friend who is a Cranial Sacroil Therapist. She told me to call her for my honey bunny.

Please let me interrupt this writing to say, when I received the number and name, my first thought was,”Mother, I am the one who needs direction right now! I am the one who was crying and feeling sorry for myself. But okay, if you are more concerned about ERIC 🤨🙄🤔, then I will call her! Maybe it will get my mind off of all this crud that I cant figure out, anyways!”

Yes, I recognize how selfish that sounded, but I needed for you to understand my mentality, at that moment, for you to see the amazing blessing!!!

I read her short text, pushed the blue highlighted number and called our friend. When she answered I was unsure I had the correct number. I continued to explain how Eric had been sick bla bla bla.

She interrupted me and apologized, but she had been sick for TEN WEEKS! She explained everything and right before we hung up…I spoke up.

“Hey, maybe I can help you! I have a bunch of ‘new’ developed skill sets and I think I can help.”

She paused and said, “When? I need you as soon as possible.”

Now at that moment, my mindset did a 360! I was not the same person I was ten minutes ago. I felt alive, ecstatic, wonderful & terrific. My mind was racing to find all the possible strategies to help this well respected healer and our friend.

We set our time and I am off to meditate! With fulfilled intentions. I am so excited!

My Monday is back & just like that a blessing APPEARS!

You see, we all have down, questioning, weak moments. But in those small moments a blessing will appear! If you simply follow your heart.

I had no idea that this woman of many talents would need me. I had no idea that text would change my mindset in a split second. But even in my weakest moment, I trusted.

Have faith my friends! Have faith that what’s best for you will always be! Have faith in YOU! God LOVES YOU! YES, EVEN YOU & ME.

I pray for you to have many blessings appear.

Happy Monday…enjoy the greatest day of the week. Even if it’s for the simplest of reason…which is, YOU WOKE UP!

Ever need a vibrational reset, message Livelove, we got you covered!

Livelove

&

Carry On

Thank you for reading.

Written by: Teena Drake/ Sunshine

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Shed a Tear. Release your FEAR!

I cried today…for you, you, & YES EVEN YOU!

I cried today…for those who struggle & are in pain.

I cried today…for those moments in life when giving up seems easier than carrying on.

I cried today…

And then…

I wiped my tears, released all my fears…

I smiled today…knowing you, you, & YES, EVEN YOU are in my life!

I smiled today…knowing that No Matter WHAT ‘THIS TOO SHALL PASS.’

I smiled today…for the moment you read this message! & that today you made a great CHOICE…You Lived, Loved & Carried On!

Life is to be Lived ‘HAPPY’ 99% of the time the other % is for you to re- evaluate and return to HAPPY!

Thank you for reading! Sending you great vibrations and happiness.

Livelove

&

Carry On

Written by: Teena Drake

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Archery & Life

Have you ever thought about shooting a bow & arrow? What does it take? Is it simple, can anyone pick it up and directly hit the bullseye? Maybe, 1 in 1,000,000!

The fact is launching an arrow from the bow, is a learned skill set within itself. Not to mention hitting a bullseye!

During the wee hours of the morning, I tossed and turned, as I observed myself and several others learning to shoot a bow and arrow. The unknown instructor would explain, demonstrate and repeat over and over again. Next, we would follow his every move until…LAUNCH!

Many arrows fell directly at our feet, some would wildly shoot into the darkness. Those of us that struggled over and over again would become frustrated and aggitated to the point of giving up!

Then it happened! Our instructor said, “Lay down your bows. Close your eyes. Listen to my words”…as they explained step by step just the same as before, they would pause after each instruction, to allow us to visualize the actions needed to be successful.

The last instruction was, “Pick up your bow, place your fingers in the correct position, pull back and launch…feel the arrow as it soars through the air and plunges directly in the middle, BULLSEYE!!!!

Do you celebrate the small accomplishments or are you constantly desiring more?

Begin to allow yourself to celebrate. Feel the sense of accomplishment! What would your action be?

Would you thrust your arms into the air to send a vibration of YES, HOORAY, HIP-HIP-HOORAY? Feel the emotions that accompany your moment of success!”

As each person in my dream picked up their bow and arrow, they seemed to become illuminated. Along with the target. The darkness filled the empty spaces. Step, by step…each person practiced feeling their way to a bullseye! Some cheered as success filled their being with tingly emotions of ACCOMPLISHMENT.

Yet, others never hit the bullseye. However, something was different this time around. Those who didn’t hit the bullseye weren’t upset…Instead, they were uplifted and full of determination. In other words they had been given a second and third chance.

What about you? Have you taken time to visualize ‘how you want to feel’ after you have accomplished the ultimate bullseye?

Have you learned of what your true desires are? Sometimes we are attracting nothing or living based on a default program called auto-pilot. Do this at 9, be here at 10, ballgames until 8, supper, bed, sleep, repeat.

It takes only a moment to visualize. Yet, it takes some of us a lifetime to understand how similar life is to archery.

1. Archery: You need a skilled educator to teach you and guide you.

Life: Loved ones, mentors, friends

2. Observe, gather, and learn.

Life: from the day you are born you are observing, gathering ideas, beliefs and developing the skills set you need to survive.

3. Visualize, feel the celebratory outcome and cheer!

Life: How many accomplishments have you made, that you have shuffled under the carpet? Instead of illuminating your own experiences and talents.

4. Do it! Pick it up and launch the arrow!

Life: Are your launched arrows dropping at your feet? Due to failure to see the end feeling or for lack of launching at all?

You will hit many more bullseyes the more arrows you launch. But if you do not allow yourself to know what your target is, your arrows will either fall at your feet with a dud. Or launch into the darkness never to reappear.

Take the time to know at least what you most desire right now and begin to take the necessary steps to learn how to ‘launch’ you arrow. Before long you will hit a bullseye like it is second nature because you ‘know’ where it is going and how to ensure it makes it SMACK DAB in the middle!!!! BULLSEYE!!!

Hello there! I am super happy to share with you.

Come along and follow me! I may be able to help you attract the life you have always desired!

Or you may have something to assist me in HITTING MY BULLSEYE.

So come follow me as we take this MILLIONAIRE by law of attraction journey! Who knows this could be FUN!

Okay, if you do not know me, let me reassure you this journey is gonna be the time of your life! So please come share with me!!!! Come cocreate, coexist and persist to be happy 99% of the time.

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As always…

Livelove

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Carry On

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Perspectives Change Everything…

I love to travel, meet new people, and experience other cultures. One of the main reasons is to look at the wide variety of perspectives and how they make me feel.

Let me see if I can illuminate this topic with different ‘perspectives’.

Oh how I love California! The ocean views, beautiful hiking, fabulous people, it is truly the land of opportunity! Movie stars, Millionaires, Beverly Hills, Shopping, and diversity beyond belief!

Oh how I hate California! Poverty, traffic, heroine alleys, gangs, fires, mud slides, and earthquakes.

Both Perspectives are completely true. No one can deny you can find each item on my list in California.

It is about your perspective and how you see it. Yes, life has some hand in what your perspective is.

For example, there was a young boy in North Carolina (on @Wave 3 News last night) who was selling Lemonade on the corner. His lemonade stand was robbed and he was held at gun point to give all of his, under twenty dollars, over to this man!

Omg, the first thing that went through my mind was how this poor boy felt. He is probably going to be scared to death to ever sell anything again. I mean he might have been ten years old…this is terrible! I feel so bad!!!

Then the rest of the story was released…Lowe’s in his town heard of this terrible robbery and ask the boy what he was selling ‘Organic Lemonade’ for. When he explained he was raising money to purchase a riding lawn mower, they gave him one!!!

I am not sure of the details if you want to read more look it up on Wave 3 News August 6th.

But what a lesson for everyone! That young boy has been given an entirely different perspective.

Life gave him lemons, he tried making lemonade, life created turpin tine, to give him a life line.

I mean yes we have much to celebrate! As for this young boy receiving a gift, but what about another perspective…he also received a terrific most valuable gift…his life!

What didn’t stop that criminal from robbing a young boys lemonade stand, did stop him from taking the boys life. Somewhere in that ‘bad’ person there is Good.

I know there will always be bad things that happen. I also realize just tilting your head slightly to the right or left, may not be able to ‘fix’ all the wrongs in the world today.

However, I do know that there is One Universal Goal that we ALL SHARE! What might that be? To Better…to better your life, abundance, emotions, life, legacy, spiritual connection the world. It doesn’t matter what you do or have done…us as humans are all in this together. To create a betterment for each other and generations to come.

Sometimes achieving the betterment goal, is by simply adjusting your focus.

Guess what adjusting your perspective automatically resets your focus. Which in turn creates one giant step towards YOU FEELING BETTER! Yippee!! That makes me feel happy and fancy free!

Take time to Pause today to glance at what your perspective is. Do you see all angles? Now decide which feels better and choose that perspective.

I promise if I focused on all the bad that I have had, I can’t imagine where I would have ever found my good friend, Glad!

I wish for you to see the good in everything around you! The cup is half full or half empty, if it has anything in at all. You get to choose your own Perspective!

Need an Angel Card reading? Email me Livelove.teena@gmail.com title it Reading or maybe a Life Coach…same thing email me at Livelove.teena@gmail.com

Our mission: To Change the World with One Happy Thought at a Time!

Our Vision: Educating the World…

How to,

Livelove

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Carry On

Because Living with every breath you breathe. Loving with your entire soul and recognizing that life will throw you some lemons and it’s your perspective which will assist you in Carrying On…is the way to accomplish the Universal Goal to be better!

God Bless!

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The ripples intrigue me…

As I sit and ponder my next great adventure, I quickly notice the abrupt change in the flow of the Ohio River.

When I first arrived at the studio it looked like glass with out a peep of ripples to be noticed. Within seconds I looked out and half of the river continued to hold steady, allowing the trees to reflect their natural beauty. The other half had began to dance in a sweet melodious manner. Swaying back and forth as if the life under the water was just waking up.

Peaceful, intriguing, fabulous, calm, breezy, not quiet but rather sound waves surrounding the area. Filling this beautiful environment with sweet singing of birds, jets zooming by high in the sky, a breeze rustling the leaves, AND what did I just catch a glimpse of? An EAGLE soaring in all her glory!

Have you ever stopped and thought what are my intentions? How do I want to feel? How do I want others to feel?

The sweet whisper escapes my lips- For my part in YOUR reality & mine…I Love you, I am so sorry, please forgive me, and thank you!

We all have moments of doubt, anger, sadness, and depression…however, it’s all about your perspective that will either hold you to all the yesterday’s (which you cannot change) or you can change what you are focusing on. Leave the past back with all the would, shoulds, coulds, and can’ts.

If I were to hand you a new life…what would you change?

As always we are here for you. Life (coaching) can help with divorce, weight, breaking nasty habits, building healthy relationships, depression, parenting, tutoring (for all ages) and much more. But most importantly we want you to…

Livelove

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Carry On

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Watch “First Attempt Nonedited, Sound Bath” on YouTube

I truly am in awe of my new found skill set. I took these pictures and created this video, but the best part is I produced the music!

When I first sent this to my dad he asked about the pics but didn’t realize that was my music. I laughed and said, “It wasn’t about the photos that was My music or vibrational pleasing sounds.”

I recognize there needs to be some editing done, but I felt like someone needed for me to share!

Without further blabbing from me…go ahead and click on my first attempt at assisting you with happy vibrations!

While you are there subscribe to my YouTube channel so you won’t miss my next recordings!

If you are feeling UGH or at the end of your rope…please I am urging you to realize we all have cruddy times but I promise if you will hold on…one more minute this too shall pass!

Livelove

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Carry On

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I hate you, I hate her, did you know what she said? I hate him too!!!!

Ever had a friend like this? No matter what the conversation, it is how much they hate something about you, their ex, and sometimes even their children. 

Ever analyzed or pondered what they are actually saying? “I Hate ME!” And everytime ‘I hate’ is stated it is not about anyone else, but rather ourselves or whoever says it. (Whether positive or negative the vibration always returns to where it came from). 

Let me see if I can explain it differently…

If you hate math and continually tell others how much you hate math. How useless it is and how you will never be good at math. You are focusing on what is, ‘I hate Math.’

After you begin to LIVE this pattern of ‘hating’ math you tell others why, when, where, and how you are never going to love math. Yet it continually shows up in your life. Every state exam, GED, even Science and Social Studies, math shows up. But you won’t give up and neither will it. Evertime you exhibit the emotion towards math the emotion returns over and over again. Because the truth is life without math is not complete ;). 

How do you get off the horse, bouncing up and down, on the Merry go round? Change your vocabulary. One at a time. Find everything you do love about math!

Wow! I love knowing how to tell time because I know when it is five o’clock or break time. Or I love earning money (which is all about math… time+effort+desire=outcome/monetary reward). Or what about vacation…how much, how far, time, destination and AWE five o’clock cocktail under the cabana! 

If you are continually telling the story of, “I hate you, I hate her, him and all of them!”

You will quickly find others will regurgitate whatever you tell them. For example, I have this dear friend of mine and he told me all the things he hated in fifteen minutes or less about four or five people. I allowed him this opportunity, intentionally. When I paused and requested to know what he liked (not loved) just liked, he continued to spout off all the negative crud he is receiving and ‘what is’ being done to him by a select group of people. 

A few days later I was in town and spoke to a few of the people he had been complaining about. Guess what? They said, “He hates us, now. He has done this, that and oh so much more. I don’t care anymore he is damaged and isn’t going to improve. He only likes himself.”

Hmmmmm do you see any similarities? After listening to their side I quietly asked, “Do you believe all that?”

But guess who did believe all those hateful acqusations? He did. Therefore, his life had become filled with what he was focusing, talking, and dwelling on. 

Was this his intention? NOOOO. And with just a little tweaking of his vocaulary he could altar the outcome.

What if we all paused immediatly after stating something crappy about someone else and asked ourselves, “Why did we even think to say that? What part about them do I not like and in return, I don’t like about myself?”

I know it is ‘difficult’ to accept that we create our own destiny. And if you would like to discuss this bold and true statement I am more than happy to oblige. 

What is the story you choose to tell? Is it the poor me or the bold, beautiful, powerful me? Enjoy your choice, if your story is not generating joy…CHANGE IT! 

Livelove LLC Life Coaching like never before. 

We are changing the world with one happy thought at a time! Want to join in on the fun? Livelove.teena@gmail.com send me an email! All it has to say is, “Hi!”

You can also message me, I do quite a bit of coaching over messenger as well. 

Here are the steps-

  1. Message/email/text Livelove or Teena Drake —  Hi or Hello
  2. I will email you a short waiver  and directions of how the coaching services work.
  3. Pay 25 dollars over Paypal,Wordpress, Facebook or by credit card (Unless other arrangements have been made).
  4. Your Coaching will begin. 
  5. Our life Coaching includes- Weightloss, Stop smoking, relationships (love), self confidence, parenting, beauty, academics, depression, anger, romance and even those IRRITATING moments when you want to pull your hair out! 

I haven’t found another program like ours and the most important information is it is FUN!!!!! 

Sending you great love and even more laughter! I hope you laugh until you pee your pants or at least until your best friend does! 

As always we wish for anyone who reads or shares these posts that you will remember, EVERYONE has a story, we love hearing yours, but most importantly…

Remember to 

Livelove

Carry On

God Bless! 

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We don’t like you!!One Flamingo said to the other…part 2

To Be Continued…

(We left off at this part of our story)

With their feathers ruffled as if they were taking flight, the boys took off running towards Franky’s back yard.

Freddy decided not to go because he was so mad at how rude his friends were. 😠😳

When the boys entered the gate their eyes almost popped out of their heads! Toys, a sand box, outside games, a swing set and at least ten other Flamingos. All GIRLS! And All different colors!💖💚💙💜💛

At first Ralph, Freddy’s best friend felt sad that Freddy didn’t come and began to turn around to beg him to join them.

Until, he spotted Franky slipping out the gate to go ask Freddy. Before she disappeared she paused, turned around and winked at Ralph. He smiled real big and went off to play in the sand box with Mabel the purple Flamingo.😉

To be continued…

Franky lightly pecked on the gate to Freddy’s back yard, as she began to tumble and fall into the gate. It flew open making a loud BANG, as it swung with great force. Due to Franky completeing a somersault, with head first and feet quickly following. She landed with a ‘SPLAT’ flat on her back, starring up at the gigantic cumulus clouds floating by.

When Freddy rushed over to check on his new friend, he noticed she had two long, pink & lime green, tubes tightly gripped in her beak. She may have taken a tumble, but she refused to ruin her new friends gift!

Freddy gently removed the funny shaped tubes from Franky’s beak and the two began to laugh, HYSTERICALLY! Before long they were both laughing so hard they were rolling on the ground, with tears in their eyes. They were holding their cheeks & tummies trying to ease their discomfort from the over abundance of laughter.

Between gasping for air and left over chuckles, Freddy asked Franky, “What were you trying to do? And what are these things?”

Recovering from her somersault and long outburst of laughter she replied with, “Bubbles! Those are bubble containers in our own colors! I was bringing them to blow bubbles with you and ask you to come to my house and play.”

The two of them rolled around a few minutes more, enjoying the moment of laughter and regaining their composure. Until both flamingos were silent, laying in the sunlite, not moving a muscle.

Freddy broke their silence by clearing his throat, as if he were about to make a declaration, he paused for a moment, then rolled towards Franky and said, “I don’t want to come to your yard to play. Not because I don’t like you, but because I am so mad 🙁 at my friends. And, and…(his feathers began to become ruffled again, as he raises them up and pushes one in Franky’s face as if he is pointing at her)…and if you knew how awful they talked about you, without even knowing you…GRRRR, it makes me mad even thinking about it again! I mean they were terrible! And then they ran over there without a care in the world! (He takes a deep breath in and his voice begins to crack) It was awful! They didn’t like you because of your color and your gender! I am sorry to tell you this, but my friends are FAKE FRIENDS! And I am super disappointed in all of them! Well at least most of them! So if you want to stay here and blow bubbles, I am fine with that! BUT I am too upset to go over there!”

Franky starred at Freddy, batting her long, beautiful eyelashes, as she listened intently to her new friends feelings! However, when he had completed his negative rant, Franky shrugged her shoulders, gave him his bubbles and simply replied with, “Hmmm I am sorry this incident bothered you so bad. I was only sad because my mommy didn’t let me invite you, myself. If you don’t want to come over that is fine, you can keep the bubbles, I hope to see you next time!”

And off she went, disappearing behind the gate once again.

Freddy stood there in a state of confusion. He thought to himself…Did she not hear anything I said? Why did she just go back to playing with those Flamingos, who didn’t like her just because she was green and female!

He wandered over to the peep hole in the fence. With his one eye ball, he scanned the entire back yard with in seconds! It did look like a great deal of fun! Fillip was racing a lavendar, girl, flamingo through the obstacle course. Franky was riding big wheels with Frank. Ralph and Mabel were eating a yummy ice cream over at the hot, pink, picnic table.

Freddy continued to think about how awful his friends were. He questioned how Franky could make friends with people who had said so many ugly things, without even knowing her.

Finally, he couldn’t stand it any longer! He marched over to Franky’s back yard. As soon as everyone saw him they ran over to greet him! “Hey so glad you came! Hello Freddy, it is nice to meet you! Freddy, I am glad you decided to join us!”

But Freddy had already made his mind up! He couldn’t let it go! He had come for a purpose and he KNEW he was doing the ‘right’ thing! He swooshed his feathers back and forth to shush everyone standing around him. He raised his head real high, beak up, stomach in, and he announced…(clearing his throat to ensure everyone was listening), “I am here to announce…”

The big, blue, Flamingo turned down the music and everyone became silent. No one moved, spoke or even took their eyes off of Freddy. As they anticipated what he had to say.

“I am here to announce…my Pink Flamingo friends from my backyard…(big breath inhale and exhale) DO NOT LIKE YOU! BECAUSE YOU ARE GIRLS AND DIFFERENT COLORS!’

An awkward silence spread throughout, with a few snickers, and some sounds of disapprovement, when Freddy completed his last word, COLORS! Frank, the one who spoke up before, questioned Freddy, “How would you know? You have been whinning over there by yourself! We are the ones who came over here and have made friends! Go back to your lonely yard, if you don’t want to have fun because we are having fun and are happy.”

Freddy stood there wondering where he went wrong. He dropped his head, began to cry, and walked towards the gate. He couldn’t understand how being honest was a bad thing. He wasn’t trying to hurt anyone, but yet he felt terrible.

Before he could disappear behind the gate as eloquently as Franky does, he heard a more mature voice, speak up, “Freddy, we all want you to stay! Please won’t you come have an ice cream.”

Freddy continued to look down at the ground and slowly walk towards the gate, “No, I can’t! No one wants me here! I guess I am a bad Flamingo!”

Out from the shadows of the house stepped a six foot, beautiful, lanky, lime, green, female flamingo and she said, “Everyone is welcome at our home! And I want you here,” in the most Angelic voice Freddy had ever heard.

At first his entire body felt frozen as he starred up at this different, but exquisit species. He wondered if she was even a flamingo. Freddy wiped the tears from his eyes and replied, “But I said the wrong things. I made everyone mad at me. I feel so bad, but I felt bad before and I thought if I came over here and told them…”

“Pause, take a deep breath my sweet child. I knew what you were attempting to do. Let me ask you something, can you change what you said? If you could, would you?”

“Of COURSE! I would most definetly take it all back. I wouldn’t have stayed over there by myself. I would not have came over here and announced all that mean stuff,” explained Freddy.

“Let’s start over! Hello, my name is Lilly. Your name is?” The beautiful flamingo asked Freddy.

“My, my, name is Freddy. I am your next door neighbor. My best friend lived here before you. I wished whoever moved in would be a nice family with children.”

She gave him a big hug and patted him on the tail feathers, as if she were saying shew, shew, now it is time for you to go play and have fun.

All the other Flamingos gathered around Freddy to show him the wonders of Franky’s backyard. The other girls introduced themselves and went on playing.

Freddy felt a tap on his shoulder but when he turned to the right there was no one there. He quickly turned back to the other side to attempt to catch the culprit. When he turned back facing front he jumped because Franky screetched, “BOO!”

They both began to laugh once again.

Freddy looked at Franky and said, “I am so sorry! For…”

But before he could continue Franky shoved him with her shoulder and said with a smirk, “Apology accepted. I knew you would come around!”

“How? How did you know? I was so angry and hurt…I couldn’t think of anything good!”

“Because my family’s motto.”

“Motto?”

“Yes, you don’t think we are oblivious to our differences do you?”

“No? But what does that have to do with it?”

“Our family motto is…’Create enough FUN that your differences become an ASSET or a GIFT rather than a hinderance.’ ”

Freddy repeated the family motto to himself a couple of times. Although he agreed with it, he continued to struggle with the past comments. He asked Franky, “But what about before? When they said they didn’t like you because of your color and gender?”

Franky giggled and said, “You have a great deal to learn. For now, lets just say I expected their first responses. But the difference between you and me is that you blend in with the majority of pink flamingos. Soooo you became offended for me. Which is understandable and I do appreciate your kindness. However, I know I am beautiful! And I have been taught to love all flamingos regardless of their differences. As for their past comments…I knew they didn’t know any better.”

“One more thing, Freddy…we all make mistakes. It’s up to us whether we want to forgive or hang on. No matter what, none of us can ‘fix’ the past. It’s your choice as to what to keep or let go.”

Freddy and Franky hugged and went off to the sand box. They played until bedtime. Roasted marshmallows, sang around the camp fire, and enjoyed all of their new friends.

Rather than trying to conform or force others to be just like us, why don’t we all enjoy our differences!

Franky and Lilly were correct! We all make mistakes. It is up to YOU to forgive, forget, and have fun. Or hang on, blame, and live in depression.

I am so grateful for you reading this. We hope Freddy and his friends will continue to empower you and carry Livelove’s message.

Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone needs a little help sometimes.

Email us: Livelove.teena@gmail.com and we will set you up with the BEST Coach for you!

As always:

Live Love

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Carry On

Written by: Teena Drake

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