Category Archives: Hate

Wow! What day is it? September 6, 2017…

As I plan my day and decide which is the most important task I look back over my website, that’s when it hit me! What? I haven’t blogged since August something? According to the last post it was August 28th! Oh my!!!! Can I explain my loss of time?

Dogs to vet, kid loses keys to car (all of them), kid goes to college, moved into dorm, moved out of dorm in 8 days (by himself), daughter comes in we enjoy wine festival, dogs back to vet, child has a wreck (totals her car, but thankfully is okay), other children whom have went off to college came to visit, cleaned out one closet/two rooms, continue to sell books, take classes, record coffee talk, became an ordained marriage minister, register as well as define, my new amazing company-Livelove hmmmm….I wonder why I continue to think negatively about my progress. Maybe after writing this I will feel better!

Please, please do not take any of that as complaining because I am not! Instead that list and this moment creates a feeling for me that is so amazing, it’s undescribable! Why? Because I have honestly become an evolving, feeling, understanding, attracting abundance in all avenues of my life human being. Meaning I am enjoying my journey and all that is best for me is here and continues to flow.

Has every day and each moment been butterflies and frolicking in the sunshine? Nope! However, has it been ‘fun’ the majority of the time? Yep!! Yes!! Si!! (I am unsure how many possible ways there are to say yes, but if I could I would type them all!!!) I have had days full of blissful moments, one right after another, yet some days have been filled with ups and downs almost like I was jumping rope, the fluctuations were that rapid.

However, as I sit and write to you, today, I realize how much fun I have had since August 28th. Of course I then continue on a reminiscing spree, but only fun or funny events. The next thing you know I am blogging and sharing with you the answer to our questions about life.

I feel like a broken record, however it’s true! I have spent my entire life searching for the ‘right’ things to do or say to help someone else have a richer, fuller, fun filled life. Some years we entitled these techniques as goal setting. Visualization, soul cleansing, religion, counseling, co-dependency and so on. I would study leadership material, listen to motivational speeches, read books to help me and of course my intentions were to help me help others.

Yet now I ask myself and you, is there anything wrong with that? If you said, “Yes.” You are 100 percent correct! However, if you said, “No.” You are 100 percent correct, as well!

You see I only did the research, helped others, chose my multiple career paths, wrote my book (Let’s Talk About Sex, Baby by Teena Drake), created a company, Livelove, and began sharing with you all these wonderful techniques because that’s what felt TERRIFIC TO ME!!!! Shew…that was a mouth full.

It’s true!!! Did I and continue to inspire, educate, love, live and enrich the lives of those who chose to read my material? Yes, of course I did! And I plan to grow and share with you until we are all living in sweet harmony, to the best of our ability!

Why do I choose this path? Because it feels good, terrific, happy, fun, loving and free to me! And EVERYONE, even politicians (Actually especially politicians, U.S. leaders and world leaders need to attend my upcoming ‘Happy Class’), your domestic engineers, preachers, teachers, entraprueners, millionaires, but most important and especially YOU can live a life full of those happy moments or feeling good choices.

Does fear creep in? Do I become scared and hopeless (no not much lol)? The answer to both of these questions are yes!!! However, let those emotions go! If you want to change your life, if not then embrace those emotions and decide why they are super prominent.

It doesn’t matter which route you take, the meaning to life is to ‘Be Happy.’ To enjoy the glorious gifts you were so delicately born with.

Go with those interupting, narrow trails that take you the long way around. It is okay because trust me when I say, “Achieving the tasks or goals throughout life was amazing, thrilling, exhilarating, phenomenal and truly undescribable. However, the journey has been times a million more fun than the end result. The seemingly minute downfalls, curve balls and pit stops along the way are the ones I cherish the most.

Yes, the journey of raising my children, vacations, financial triumphs, financial disaater, careers beginning, evolving, losing, loving, laughter, tears and happiness has filled in the details of each memory. Because it’s not the details of the memory you have, but rather the details of the feelings, emotions ect.

Find it, if you want, the ‘feeling good’ emotion and enjoy it.

If you responded with, “How? I don’t feel like it today or Teena, you don’t understand?”

That’s fine, you are probably right. Notice, I said, “If you want to.”

That’s because no matter what happiness is YOUR CHOICE!

If you choose (and you are having a down day), lay in the bed or go to the bathroom and begin saying, “I LOVE _________! I LOVE To _________.”

Yes, sometimes it can be a little negative just don’t dwell on that it’s more of a way to let it go. For example: Lady at work is being super mean to you and has been for days, you are over it. Excuse yourself and say I love to go to the bathroom so I can’t hear her. (Gritting your teeth).

No really just focus on you and what makes you feel good not the other person, that provides their meaness with more energy. Remember your circle of influence is ONLY YOU! (@Stephencovey @leaderinme).

Okay, I have written enough! If you received nothing else know this…HAVE FUN!

Livelove

When my child is sick…

All of my new writings, vlogs and blogs are from an inspiration I received from a life changing event. However, I will admit I have to ask myself those WHYS????? when one of my babies are sick or feel broken. You know the why’s I am talking about. Why do good parents or any parents have to lose a child either in illness or tragic accident. Why can’t very good ‘parental’ candidates give birth to five, six and sometimes seven children? Yet, two people who love each other with all their hearts and are financially stable can not get pregnant? And my answer is…

I don’t know. All I do know is when my child is sick those questions rerurn. Then I have to stop, pray and meditate. Do I always receive my answers? 99.9% of the time I do, immediatly! That small fraction of time I have to wait a small amount of longer. That’s why I am sharing this message with all of you today. So the next time I write or say something that you wish were true becuase you don’t believe me, when I say your life is meant to live feeling good and having fun. Ready? Here it goes… (I am really nervous and almost sick to my stomach)…

Mourning I understand. However, living in a mourning state or a questioning state of why me? Why mine? Grrrrrr I hate this life ect…is similar to wishing you didn’t have that encounter, child, parent, grandparent, animal ALL PHYSICAL LOSS OF A LOVED ONE HURTS!

However, to not continue to live to be happy while you are here on earth is like saying I wish I didn’t have this experience because the good times did not out weigh the pain I I I I feel, (Yes a strong accent is on I) from losing you.

As I was writing this my good friend called and I took a short break. As I explained what I was about to write about she said, “Teena the best explanation will come out of your message. (Paused) Just remember to include if I die tomorrow and I am happy today then it’s been a good life.”

Please do not criticize or feel agitated with my message. I am going to warn you against reading it in my excerpt. But also right here…Do not read any further if you do not want to hear/read this message. Because I promise it is pure.

To my dear friends who have suffered great hurt, I am sorry, with all of my heart. The strong love we have for one another is absolutely incedible. I know I am a wife, mother, sister, in law, daughter, niece, grand daughter. I have suffered loss and I have questioned the why’s!!! I have felt pain physical, emotional, and all the rest as well. However, that is not my desire or my good feeling vibration. I choose not to allow those precious encounters throughout my life to become a burden, due to my own pain. Instead I choose to live based on the positive, funny, wonderful impression, learning experience, joy and pure ‘happiness’ they have brought to my life. And how dull my very existence would be without having those people/animals in my life.

My grandfather created the love I have for travel. Him and my grandma rode my BMW motorcycle to at least 40 states, if not more. My grandmother taught me songs to always warm my heart, how to can vegetables, so my family would never grow hungry, and how to follow my intuition or as she called it your gut feeling. Of course my most recent loss Matthew Reed took me by a shock. Although I and many others still mourn him today, I always return to his zest for life, his genuine kindness and his funny disposition always comes shining thru. Him finding a solution for every problem like the slide is too dry so to keep from burning your butt pee on it first!! I burst into laughter everytime I write that or look at their picture!

This message isn’t to hurt you, but to free you. And to free them. They love you!!!! But they want you to feel good and be happy!

Fast forward your life no matter what age you are right now. You are now 113! (13 is my favorite number). You ride around with your sparkly golf cart, around the whipper snappers who are 85 and above and you are enjoying life. And you hit a stump fly off your golf cart, hit your head and die. If you have very many desendents left, especially young ones, and they mourned over you year after year, instead of discussing all the funny times you had or great gifts you brought them while they were growing up. Instead it was almost like they wished you never existed because your death is all they can remember. Would you want that? Does that give you a good feeling?

I feel like such a broken record and trust me times like now, I understand the sadness and hurt all of us have endured. However, I must keep telling you over and over feel good right now. Feel inspired today and if you don’t feel inspired then stop and smell the roses or take time to meditate. Catch the feeling good frequency.

God loves you no matter what!!!

Livelove

Just in! HOT HOT HOT off the press…

Inspired writing at its best. I have had a hell of a week! And rather than boring you with the details I am want to tell you an inspired thought I just had! Maybe someone else needs this as well. Also I have an appointment in like 30 minutes and I don’t want to make Ms. Debbie keep waiting on me.

Inspired thougjt: With so many questions rolling through my head. Which way is best? Is it best for me or for them or for God or Jesus, or Buddha, or another religous organizations, the government, my kids….is it best for all races? Is it best for human kind or our nation? Please someone tell me? Answer the questions. Do I pray or not pray do I believe or not believe, encourage or discourage?

Don’t all of those questions overwhelm you? And have you benefitted from any of those questions? Nor have I and don’t I wish I could give you a solid answer. The truth is I can not give you any ‘answer’ at all!!!! I can only offer you an emotion a flow that is in sync with you and then hopefully if you want you can find your ‘path of least resiatance” (@abraham-hicks).

You see for over a year now (way before my accident) I began a quest, let’s say it was a spiritual yet deep quest! I have been asking people from all around the world three questions

1. If you were to be told you had six months to live from today what would you do?

2. After you die what happens? Describe and explain.

3. What is the meaning of Life and why?

Now I am not letting you in on the secrets to life, that I learned through this quest, just yet. Because if I didn’t get to ask some of you or other new friends because the time was not right, therefore my data is not clear.

However, hold on I must share one theory that has come out of this, but it is not my final answer!!! Okay?

What I meant to say just then was…there is no final answer! Nope not one. Your answers to these questions and mine, will be always changing and evolving. It may change from one minute to the next or you may create a habitual thought process you hold onto for life.

I can remember when I was ‘born again’ and so new and improved I became a bit better than others. I can remember blaming God for my woes and when I felt the lowest I could go I was on my knees until they were wearing holes in my jeans. Then came the next phase…the nothing syndrome. I believe in nothing, I think we are worth nothing, life is meaningless nothing! I must admit even the phases of studying ‘religious beliefs’ around the world this one I can’t deal with. Therefore, that’s the last of the nothingness. Because no matter what the emotional attachment to that entire concept makes me wonder why to life! Sooooo we have now had a peak into my inspired thought. My phone is dying and I am already late. (Poor Ms. Debbie, she is constantly wondering what am I going to do with Teena)

To be continued…

Livelove

God loves you no matter what!!!!!

If you didn’t have hate, what would you talk about?

When this question came to me I had been around a wide variety of people. Dorm life, university volunteers, servers ect. Everyone seemed to be talking; some people discussed politics, some about how difficult life is, others how bad their health is and my all time favorite how awful the dorm is. The more I asked it (in my head) the more I realized this isn’t a typical blog posting at all! It is not a long writing or a solid answer that can be placed in a, one size fits all, category. Instead it is a simple yet deep question for YOU to answer.

If you didn’t have, know or feel hatered/hatefullness/hating/hate in any shape or form what would you talk about?

This isn’t a judgment post nor a learn from, just a ponder….

God Loves You Always!

Livelove