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There is no greater or less than, when it comes to you…

As ‘life’ seems to happen around us, many people like to compare stories or talk about the issues. However, there is no comparisons between your story and theirs.

Of course we are all connected and as humans, we can all FEEL empathy or sympathy depending on our similar incidents.

But…everyone has moments of being depressed, sad, hurt, lost and disappointed. I can remember the day, my son explained that pointing out all the reasons someone should be grateful, isn’t always the best feeling emotion for someone suffering. I questioned why or why not, it always seemed to work for me. Highlighting all the reasons I should be grateful, how blessed I am and so on.

Nick explained how sometimes those comments are more detrimental to the person.

That was several years ago and to be completely honest, I didn’t truly understand.

Now, I do!

You see we ALL have moments where life feels overwhelming, too much and disappointing. Those who their stories, are well known and inspire others, but also you and me.

As I wrote and rewrote my speech for the area contest @Earlybirdstoastmasterskc, the days seemed to be zooming by. Closer and closer, my excitement was building and the anticipation of all the exciting opportunities, this club has to offer, was assisting me in working up the best message, I had ever written! Ohhh, if you could only feel my radiating excitement.

Yet, day by day in LA we had to jump one hurdle and then twenty five more or maybe a hundred more! (Okay I am being a bit over dramatic, as Ashby says).

But it is true. I could whine and cry about every little speed bump thrown in front of us, but where would we be then? Instead let me share what I have learned.

This week I had to let go of my first speech competition. It was to be on Monday February 5th. There were no guarantees I would move on to the next level, because our club has intense competition, but I wanted to attempt it, in the worst kind of way!

I had prepared and practiced the entire road trip from Kansas to LA.

As the hurdles popped up, some one at a time, others it seemed like fifty at a time, I began to realize my excitement was about to he turned into disappointment! With all the issues about having Princeton, I quickly realized my trip would be delayed, forcing me to step down from the competition.

Now this may seem silly to anyone else, but I cried and cried! I was disappointed, sad, overwhelmed and a little bit selfish. Most of all I was torn! This was my baby girl and very dear to me granddog. But I also wanted to attempt this competition!

Then my lessons began!!! Everytime I would express my disappointing emotions someone would share on Facebook or tell me about a horrific event. For example in the past month we have lost loved ones to accidents, cancer, flu and suicides. I would cry for them or add to my prayer list.

Yes, my silly little issues seemed trivial after all of that. I have so much to be grateful for, I know that.

Then I realized Nick was correct. Pointing out or minimizing our own disappointments, by comparison, is not fair, to you.

My epiphany was EVERYONE, experiences their own depression and disappointments. And YOURS is just as important as the next one. Because we are all on our own journey and life happens whether we are striving to improve or not.

And MAYBE, JUST MAYBE…this is a key to helping others choose to feel all the emotions, yet not give up.

The key is to allow yourself to feel the negative emotion. Express your feelings of disappointment. (Allow this moment). Do not worry about feeling trivial compared to other people’s issues. I am Not saying dwell on it and/or illuminate the situation, but rather, ALLOW yourself to have a moment of tears.

It is okay!!! There is no greater and less than, when it comes to you and how you feel. Maybe if we begin to allow kids and adults to say, “I feel like giving up.”

We will have less severely depressed or suicides. When I was having a moment of ‘selfish disappointments’ it felt good to allow the sadness, for a moment. It forced me to find solutions, it allowed me to be human, and it reminded me how quickly ANYONE can give up.

It is time we begin to allow our younger generations to know we have all been there. We have all had struggles and let it out. All of it! Say it if you feel it. It’s okay.

No matter how trivial it may be to others. Your disappointments, moments of sadness or maybe your losses are not comparable to others! You are allowed to say it because believe it or not… EVERYONE experiences negative emotions.

My greatest hope is…this post will help one person to choose life. If you are not feeling so well about something, say it! And quit worrying about comparing apples, arangatans, and kale spinach. This is YOUR EXPERIENCE! No one elses!





Need your help!

Here it goes, Lights, Camera and Action! Livelove’s YouTube channel is about to go Crazy! I get so excited every time I think about it. However, I have a few issues, that I could honestly, use your help with. As a new on-line business, with a mission, that contains a great deal of LOVE, for YOU…I am struggling with a few decisions. Therefore, I wondered if you would like to be a part of the ‘decision’ making process. If so, continue to read and participate, if not we will catch you later (you might want to skip over reading the rest of this one). If you already know about Livelove and are interested in having an input, as our family (business) grows and brands themselves, then skip down to number five.



  1. We have the business registered and services in place.
  2. Trademark for Freddy the Pink Flamingo, is all completed (those of you who helped choose him, Thank you).
  3.  Slogan is being registered as we speak.
  4. Services: One on one coaching, professional motivational workshops, for those companies who need extra help with company moral and team work. A new e-book and audible book with the Happy Curriculum embedded into the series, to allow you to learn and enjoy, at your own pace, is almost completed. Educational Seminar for school districts to educate the children, on choosing life/living, rather than suicide. Some exciting new items will be available shortly :).
  5. So what am I missing? Your input on all of this! To be exact…
    • Where would you like to attend a ‘How to’ ‘Be Happy’ seminar/workshop? Is there a preferable location for example? Would you sign up to attend a Livelove seminar in Kauai, Outer Banks North Carolina, Los Angeles? Texas? Or Kansas City? Or in another country? Maybe Italy? or Mexico? You tell me, list it in the comments on Facebook, WordPress, messenger or email us… I want to know where you would like for our event planning specialist to begin focusing?
    • Last but not least…Do you like our newest member to Livelove LLC? The only problem is she is nameless, for now. Therefore, I did a mini photo shoot for you! She will be creating educational videos for our ‘kiddos’ who are watching Livelove!
    • This is your chance to give a thumbs up or down to _______________, our newest member. Again you can comment on WordPress, Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, messenger, email us at, or check into our website and leave us a message.
    • Questions to answer:
      • What should her name be? I have Momma Teena, Pinky, Pinkalicious (this one scares me a bit, sounds a little umm, IDK), or my middle name is Gay after my aunt, I could use her name which means ‘happy’. Or, you provide suggestions.
      • Do you like the pink hair? For educational videos?
      • Glasses? or no glasses?
      • Type of outfit she should have made? (If you didn’t know Physical Fit Flower the Clown was me, but I had to move away from being a white face clown, too many horror films 😦 .
      • How long of videos do you prefer? Five minutes, fifteen or twenty-five…we realize when guest are on the show, they may be over twenty-five, but regularly? (Educational Videos, songs, how to’s, interesting journeys, and much more)
      • Do you think we should post once a day, week bi-weekly or monthly?
  6. Anything else you can think of or suggest for us to help you, let us know!

Livelove is super excited to share with you in 2018! Looking forward to meeting you in person! I will announce her name as soon as we know the final decision.

God Bless!





Happy Coaching 101 (Day three)

I felt like Wednesday was the day to share this particular coaching session. Honestly, I could write a book on what this lady taught me. Her messages, her thoughts, sometimes silence and her perspective. You see, this special lady taught me how to understand my messages, to accept them and most definetly share them. I have been strictly instructed to only tell her circumstances and an extremely vague description at that.

This lady had suffered great loss in her life. She has buried a child and her husband. That is all you are allowed to know. The saddest part is I was not allowed to save the majority of her coaching messages. Only those that were extra special, such as this one. However, those were her wishes.

Message: First…create a map,  a map of your life include pebbles, big rocks, water, whatever terrain that best describes you and your life. Including pathways, roads, highways, speed limits, marriage, births, special events, whatever it may be that you can remember, about your life up until this point. It is your creation. You may share with me if you so desire or not, either way it is up to you.

Second…I am givng you an eraser. A gigantic eraser and your instructions are simple, ERASE ALL THE BAD! I mean erase every tear, painful moment, trial or tribulation, everytime you felt less than, worthless, fearful, hopeless, destroyed. Erase them all.

Her response was priceless! But guess what? You are going to have to wait to see, what her response was and my come back message, until tomorrow. Why? Because I want you to create the design of this woman, her age, feelings, appearance and create this ‘hero’ in your head. And maybe you can go ahead and begin to create your life map. Who knows, we might be on to something, psst, I think we are.

To Be Continued…




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God Bless Everyone!

Hey, if you are just now reading this post, skip back through Monday and Tuesday’s post Happy Coaching 101- 1 & 2. These are samples of actual coaching messages some people have received.

suicide? Suicide? SUICIDE?

This picture is on a house boat with Darion Drake and Matt Reed, when they were little. Although his memory will always live on, his physical form was taken from us. Why? Because he couldn’t see a better way! Isn’t it time we show others, there is always a choice. A choice to live. If life feels ‘too much’, pause, breathe and hold on…THIS TOO WILL PASS!

I will never ever forget the moment, I received this crazy phone call! “Teena, Matt has killed himself!”

I rubbed my eyes, cleared my throat and asked,”What? Did you say Suicide?”

“Yes, he is gone!”

(This is not a posting to upset anyone, but it needs to be written!)

I woke Eric up and we both broke down and began to sob. Heart broken, angry, hurt and deeply saddened were just a few emotions, we were experiencing.

You see this was extremely unexpected, because Mathew had been through this exact same horrific experience, with his older brother. He was a teenager and it happened right before his birthday. So you can imagine why we never thought Matt was capable of repeating the event.

However, sadly he did! Leaving his sister, mother and nephew with voids, never to be filled.

Let me tell you about Mathew Reed!

He had a spirit of LIVING! He loved cars, helping others, his family (especially his wonderful nephew). He was a ball of energy. Always willing to lend a helping hand and he could make you laugh until you peed your pants!

At his visitation, I heard the same thing over and over again. “Why? He was such a great person. Why?”

I wish I could answer such a simple question, as to why? But I can’t. Instead, I want to illuminate his life and hopefully help someone else. As I write, in almost ALL of my postings, NO ONE CAN CHANGE THE PAST! I, nor you can reverse what has been done. Yes, you can receive strength to carry on, but once any act or deed is done, it is done.

However, I do believe, my loving Mathew Reed and I can help someone. Someone who is hurting, contemplating and feels stuck.

You see IF we could have stopped this, Matt would probably be preparing for a fun filled night of hanging with his friends. Texting me at midnight to just wish me Happy New Years and laughing about all the crud he has been through. However, none of those events can or will happen.

Sad? Yes! Change it? No 😔!

Learn from him? Definitely 😎!!

If Matt could speak to you right now he would say, “Hold on. Pause. Breathe Deeply. And LIVE ON!”

It’s okay to feel…anyway you want to feel. But please continue to remember, ‘This too will pass.’

I love you Mathew Reed and will continue to send out your message.

God Bless

Please, I beg of you, help me to help others. Tell someone today, that no matter what, it’s going to be okay. It will work out and this to will PASS!




The Lopsided Cake…

I could have never been a baker because they would have to throw a delicious lopsided cake away, based on principal. However, the truth is I am enjoying serving more and more lopsided, imperfect, delicious, ooey, gooey, cakes. It may seem odd for me to create this comparison to life, but if you stop and think about it, maybe you will see.

In the past I would become so upset over the smallest things. Oh my if someone didn’t like me or worst yet, thought bad of me! I mean someone told me the other day they didn’t appreciate or agree with one of my blogs. I batted my eyes, truly listened to their concern and apologized. No, I wasn’t angry, hurt or frustrated! I kind of understood where they were coming from. (I will come back to this conversation later in the post).

No, I have never been a baker and I am pretty sure most of my cakes have always been losided, similar to a volcano drooping down on one side, unevenly. However, in other ways I was a perfectionist! I expected everything to be perfect. Actually that’s not quite true, I expected, for everyone else, to have expectations, of me, to be perfect! That makes so much more sense, to me.

You see Ms. Debbie’s words of wisdom rings, throughout my head, when someone misunderstands something I have written or stated, “Teena, you need to finish that thought; not everyone knows you well enough to follow the many thoughts rolling through your head. That means you could be easily misunderstood.”

It is true. My thoughts are swirling by the millions and when I become excited or extremely emitting energy in one way or another, the outcome of my words are not always self explainatory!

Back to the point! In the past I always thought I had to be perfect. Although it is unrealisitic nor possible, I placed those restraints on myself. I always wished I could blame this on someone else, but I can’t. It isn’t because of the expectations my mother had, husband or children. Not what the school system placed on me nor the parents or students. It was me! I lived in a perfect world and if anyone messed it up, I would almost fall apart just like a baker would if he/she had to serve one of my slippery sloping cakes.

However, now I just don’t have it in me. Not really that I have slowed down or my thoughts have become less and less. That is far from the truth! I rarely have any particular expectations anymore. I feel myself evolving to one of the richest parts of my life, yet. It is amazing! The feeling of butterflies fluttering in my stomach, when I know Eric is on his way home. The excitement that overwhelmes me when I get to see all my children, family and friends. I am truly grateful and blessed.

I can remember (which I will only remember this for a moment then I am letting it go forever) coming home and being filled with anxiety, stress and aggitation. I worried about how everyone, I do mean everyone in my life chidren, husband, mom, dad, grandma, teachers, peers, students, principals…I worried about! I can’t tell you how many tears I have shed over someone being ‘mad at me.’ If you have ever felt this way or continue to live this way, read on I am about to spill the beans of how it is ‘fake news.’

Come in closer, get real quiet while reading this…IT IS NOT IMPORTANT! Yes, you heard it here first! Perfectionism is not important nor will it add to your life. It is true. Being ‘Perfect’ is ‘Fake News.’ I have meditated this entire year, almost everyday, to gather information or muddle through some theories, so I could share with you! Guess what? I have even tried to Remember why I hated someone (never really experienced HATRED, nor do I want to, so let’s call it disliked their actions). Could remember very little. Almost like when you soak an aspirin to give to an elderly, attempting to swallow. The memory still had a little substance, but not enough to recognize what it was and the end result was no more pain or suffereing from that situation! Wow!!!! In other words, “This too will pass.”

Yes, some memories carry a powerful impact both negative or positive, but the strongest impact is how you felt and how you feel. Instead of struggling or wrestling with the past, go bake a cake! Make it lopsided, oozing with melted icing and enjoy the laughter about your blunders.

It is time to come out of the closet, perfectionist. You are worthy of being terrific without being perfect. Just do it! Drop your rules and regulations for yourself and let us see the beautiful YOU! The VIBRANT YOU! It makes me so excited, I just want to break into song! You know a random song that says, “You are wonderful, be happy, enjoy, mess up and laugh along the way!!!”

Hmmmm I might have something!

Back to the blog posting that might have not been a complete or self explanatory concept, I admit I have imperfections! Thank you for noticing and better yet thanks for reading my blog! As always I hope you are inspired and motivated to live a Happy Life!

God Bless




Had to use this picture because all the lopsided cakes I look up were, what? PERFECT!!! Go ahead and try it, type in Google search, ‘Lopsided Cakes’ grrrrrr they were adorable!!!! Lol oh well be happy!

I Love you, Do you?

“Gosh, I love you so much! I love the way you walk, talk, laugh and cry! I love your hair, smile…I just love you sooo much!!!!!”

“Did you know my fat butt gained twenty pounds? I hate the way I waddle. Oh, here I go again stuffing my face with all the guilt feelings of why I love the delicious, savory flavors that were so strategically placed in this dish, for me to feel guilty about! I hate my hair, hate my skin…You know I have a disorder. And ADHD, my parents well they sucked, my kids are even worse. I hate that I am broke, sick and tired of being sick and tired! OH! However, I love you! So good to see you again!”

WHAT????? Please don’t stop reading, don’t stop reading, please!!!! This is an inspirational writing from the depths of my SEA of emotional thought patterns.

Everyone has had a friend like this or maybe it is YOU, that would respond in such a manner. It is okay, don’t beat yourself up over this one. We have all played the victim at one point or another. The fat victim, sad, misfortune, my life sucks, he destroyed me or she is a tramp victim. I don’t care what title you have carried, but I can assure you, we are all in this together!

Here is the eye-opening situation…You and only you are allowed to decide where you are and where you are going! Yep, in all situations. Therefore, the statement he can only love you as much as you love yourself isn’t actually correct.  (I am sure psychologist and my family are like what in the world, Teena has lost her mind! And you might be correct!)

Just hold on! It is not as bad as you think!

I am going to repeat the words I wrote earlier, let them sink in as you read them!

“You and only you are allowed to decide where you are and where you are going! Yep, in all situations.”

Therefore, I love you, do you love you? Is the question. I truly do love everything and unconditionally about my children and if I were, to be honest, I can strongly say this about my family and my friends. I realize that is a pretty strong statement and yes, you might be able to come up with some situations I would have to ponder, but my friends/family can vouch for me my love for them is pure!)

However, I have had to stop and contemplate my love for me! I always thought I loved myself unconditionally. I always thought I could only love someone else as much as I love myself. Gosh, if that is true and my studies (on how I trust and love myself) means I love people only based on the conditions they are doing ‘good’ for me! (I DO NOT! So do not take this out of context like someone who is reading a book and quoting me statements from one sentence, grrrrr that makes me irritable).

So is it true? or False? Someone can only love you as much as you love yourself? I don’t know, however, now that I have collected inventory on my emotions, it is the time for me to begin to love myself! Believe in me, enjoy the same love I have always given. Then, if the statement is true everyone around me will benefit. That means the better I become, the more trustworthy and loving I am towards me, I will have more to give. Spiritually, emotionally, financially and lovingly.

I am sorry, I can’t seem to find the words to wrap this up. I want to continue to ramble about how amazing it is to recognize why I want and desire to love me! How many others will benefit and be enriched…


[Ma = In] + [ = breath] + [alo = presence, front, face]
“(May you be) in (Divine) Breath.”

Livelove & Carryon

Don’t forget to sign up for Dec. 8th, 2017!

Our First Happy Celebration I will post this weekend about what more you can expect, but one thing is for sure…you will walk away inspired, encouraged and wanting more!!!!! Livelove you!!!




What? When? Where? Why?

What is coming up? Our first Happy Class, ‘Live’ on December 8th, beginning at 7 ending? Whenever you get tired of celebrating life with us or I wear out on you. Either or it is going to be well worth your time and money!

Where? Fountain Building on the corner of Main Street and Broadway, (across the street from The Historical Broadway Restaurant and Hotel, huge pale yellow building).

Why? Are you feeling like there is something better than this?

Maybe as winter sets in, you have become a little depressed.

Maybe you need some answers on how to improve your life and live, ‘Happily Ever After.’

Is it more money? Maybe you need to know how to earn more money and quit that awful pay check to pay check, J.O.B. and do what you love!

Maybe you want to find ‘love’ and you need some new techniques on how to attract that special someone.

What we CAN NOT DO! change, fix, help, bring a new, or bring back the PAST!! In any shape or form I nor can our company or anyone else, bring back or change the past, so if that is what you are looking for well move on!!!

What we CAN DO!! Assist you in creating the life you have always wanted to live. Take F.E.A.R. out of your life equation (for the majority of the time).

Allow you to ask questions and receive answers to the best of our ability about what you, your needs and or desires are.

Assist you in handling ‘stressful’ unwanted, hurtful situations throughout your life. This is not promising everyday full of butterflies and lollipops, but it is promising the majority of your life being filled with BRIGHT, BEAUTIFUL, BUTTERFLIES and LOLLIPOPS!!!!!

Okay, I am going into overload. Therefore, I am going to stop! However, I don’t think, if you are in Carrolton, Milton, Henry, Oldham, Owen, Franklin, Jefferson Co. Kentucky or Jefferson Co., Madison, Vevay, Clarksville, Indiana OKAY! wherever you are from you won’t want to miss December 8th, 2017 in Madison Indiana!!!! At 7 PM.

No, it is not the full monty of:

Only because this is a trial run and IF YOU decide to be a part of this first celebration, you will receive a multitude of benefits and a few gifts to take home with you.

However, you must hurry to register because this is limited seating. We have a few seats left and due to our pricing being the lowest price it will ever be, you need to act fast!

You can register several ways…

1. Email- and say I need two reservations for December 8th.

2. click on Celebrations. (If you have trouble with the purchase portion let me know.

3. Contact Kentuckiana News at- title it HAPPY CELEBRATION RESERVATION

4. Contact Charlene Kelley she is in charge of registration.

5. Any questions email us we will get back to you asap.

I realized after re-reading this I forgot to include the low price for this amazing opportunity.

It is only twenty five dollars and/or forty per couple! But!!!! If you book between now, November 8th thru the 14th, you can purchase the class for 20.00 dollars! What? Yes, one time only and I PROMISE, it will not be at this price ever again.

Why? Did I drop the price for 7 days? Truthfully, it is because I am on vacation in paradise and I am feeling super sentimental. You see eleven months ago today, my life changed forever! And since then my mission is to help others find their own paradise and if Hawaii is only a dream for you.

I want to help make that a reality! I want to share with you techniques that I have learned to have, do or be anything you desire. If a dream vacation is what you want, we will discuss how. If you have a desire and you are struggling with anything, we can help find your block, let it go and assist you in: Livelove & Carryon!!!

God Bless