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The Lopsided Cake…

I could have never been a baker because they would have to throw a delicious lopsided cake away, based on principal. However, the truth is I am enjoying serving more and more lopsided, imperfect, delicious, ooey, gooey, cakes. It may seem odd for me to create this comparison to life, but if you stop and think about it, maybe you will see.

In the past I would become so upset over the smallest things. Oh my if someone didn’t like me or worst yet, thought bad of me! I mean someone told me the other day they didn’t appreciate or agree with one of my blogs. I batted my eyes, truly listened to their concern and apologized. No, I wasn’t angry, hurt or frustrated! I kind of understood where they were coming from. (I will come back to this conversation later in the post).

No, I have never been a baker and I am pretty sure most of my cakes have always been losided, similar to a volcano drooping down on one side, unevenly. However, in other ways I was a perfectionist! I expected everything to be perfect. Actually that’s not quite true, I expected, for everyone else, to have expectations, of me, to be perfect! That makes so much more sense, to me.

You see Ms. Debbie’s words of wisdom rings, throughout my head, when someone misunderstands something I have written or stated, “Teena, you need to finish that thought; not everyone knows you well enough to follow the many thoughts rolling through your head. That means you could be easily misunderstood.”

It is true. My thoughts are swirling by the millions and when I become excited or extremely emitting energy in one way or another, the outcome of my words are not always self explainatory!

Back to the point! In the past I always thought I had to be perfect. Although it is unrealisitic nor possible, I placed those restraints on myself. I always wished I could blame this on someone else, but I can’t. It isn’t because of the expectations my mother had, husband or children. Not what the school system placed on me nor the parents or students. It was me! I lived in a perfect world and if anyone messed it up, I would almost fall apart just like a baker would if he/she had to serve one of my slippery sloping cakes.

However, now I just don’t have it in me. Not really that I have slowed down or my thoughts have become less and less. That is far from the truth! I rarely have any particular expectations anymore. I feel myself evolving to one of the richest parts of my life, yet. It is amazing! The feeling of butterflies fluttering in my stomach, when I know Eric is on his way home. The excitement that overwhelmes me when I get to see all my children, family and friends. I am truly grateful and blessed.

I can remember (which I will only remember this for a moment then I am letting it go forever) coming home and being filled with anxiety, stress and aggitation. I worried about how everyone, I do mean everyone in my life chidren, husband, mom, dad, grandma, teachers, peers, students, principals…I worried about! I can’t tell you how many tears I have shed over someone being ‘mad at me.’ If you have ever felt this way or continue to live this way, read on I am about to spill the beans of how it is ‘fake news.’

Come in closer, get real quiet while reading this…IT IS NOT IMPORTANT! Yes, you heard it here first! Perfectionism is not important nor will it add to your life. It is true. Being ‘Perfect’ is ‘Fake News.’ I have meditated this entire year, almost everyday, to gather information or muddle through some theories, so I could share with you! Guess what? I have even tried to Remember why I hated someone (never really experienced HATRED, nor do I want to, so let’s call it disliked their actions). Could remember very little. Almost like when you soak an aspirin to give to an elderly, attempting to swallow. The memory still had a little substance, but not enough to recognize what it was and the end result was no more pain or suffereing from that situation! Wow!!!! In other words, “This too will pass.”

Yes, some memories carry a powerful impact both negative or positive, but the strongest impact is how you felt and how you feel. Instead of struggling or wrestling with the past, go bake a cake! Make it lopsided, oozing with melted icing and enjoy the laughter about your blunders.

It is time to come out of the closet, perfectionist. You are worthy of being terrific without being perfect. Just do it! Drop your rules and regulations for yourself and let us see the beautiful YOU! The VIBRANT YOU! It makes me so excited, I just want to break into song! You know a random song that says, “You are wonderful, be happy, enjoy, mess up and laugh along the way!!!”

Hmmmm I might have something!

Back to the blog posting that might have not been a complete or self explanatory concept, I admit I have imperfections! Thank you for noticing and better yet thanks for reading my blog! As always I hope you are inspired and motivated to live a Happy Life!

God Bless

Livelove

&

Carryon

Had to use this picture because all the lopsided cakes I look up were, what? PERFECT!!! Go ahead and try it, type in Google search, ‘Lopsided Cakes’ grrrrrr they were adorable!!!! Lol oh well be happy!

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I Love you, Do you?

“Gosh, I love you so much! I love the way you walk, talk, laugh and cry! I love your hair, smile…I just love you sooo much!!!!!”

“Did you know my fat butt gained twenty pounds? I hate the way I waddle. Oh, here I go again stuffing my face with all the guilt feelings of why I love the delicious, savory flavors that were so strategically placed in this dish, for me to feel guilty about! I hate my hair, hate my skin…You know I have a disorder. And ADHD, my parents well they sucked, my kids are even worse. I hate that I am broke, sick and tired of being sick and tired! OH! However, I love you! So good to see you again!”

WHAT????? Please don’t stop reading, don’t stop reading, please!!!! This is an inspirational writing from the depths of my SEA of emotional thought patterns.

Everyone has had a friend like this or maybe it is YOU, that would respond in such a manner. It is okay, don’t beat yourself up over this one. We have all played the victim at one point or another. The fat victim, sad, misfortune, my life sucks, he destroyed me or she is a tramp victim. I don’t care what title you have carried, but I can assure you, we are all in this together!

Here is the eye-opening situation…You and only you are allowed to decide where you are and where you are going! Yep, in all situations. Therefore, the statement he can only love you as much as you love yourself isn’t actually correct.  (I am sure psychologist and my family are like what in the world, Teena has lost her mind! And you might be correct!)

Just hold on! It is not as bad as you think!

I am going to repeat the words I wrote earlier, let them sink in as you read them!

“You and only you are allowed to decide where you are and where you are going! Yep, in all situations.”

Therefore, I love you, do you love you? Is the question. I truly do love everything and unconditionally about my children and if I were, to be honest, I can strongly say this about my family and my friends. I realize that is a pretty strong statement and yes, you might be able to come up with some situations I would have to ponder, but my friends/family can vouch for me my love for them is pure!)

However, I have had to stop and contemplate my love for me! I always thought I loved myself unconditionally. I always thought I could only love someone else as much as I love myself. Gosh, if that is true and my studies (on how I trust and love myself) means I love people only based on the conditions they are doing ‘good’ for me! (I DO NOT! So do not take this out of context like someone who is reading a book and quoting me statements from one sentence, grrrrr that makes me irritable).

So is it true? or False? Someone can only love you as much as you love yourself? I don’t know, however, now that I have collected inventory on my emotions, it is the time for me to begin to love myself! Believe in me, enjoy the same love I have always given. Then, if the statement is true everyone around me will benefit. That means the better I become, the more trustworthy and loving I am towards me, I will have more to give. Spiritually, emotionally, financially and lovingly.

I am sorry, I can’t seem to find the words to wrap this up. I want to continue to ramble about how amazing it is to recognize why I want and desire to love me! How many others will benefit and be enriched…

Mahalo

Mahalo
[Ma = In] + [ = breath] + [alo = presence, front, face]
“(May you be) in (Divine) Breath.”

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Livelove & Carryon

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Don’t forget to sign up for Dec. 8th, 2017!

Our First Happy Celebration I will post this weekend about what more you can expect, but one thing is for sure…you will walk away inspired, encouraged and wanting more!!!!! Livelove you!!!

 

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What? When? Where? Why?

What is coming up? Our first Happy Class, ‘Live’ on December 8th, beginning at 7 ending? Whenever you get tired of celebrating life with us or I wear out on you. Either or it is going to be well worth your time and money!

Where? Fountain Building on the corner of Main Street and Broadway, (across the street from The Historical Broadway Restaurant and Hotel, huge pale yellow building).

Why? Are you feeling like there is something better than this?

Maybe as winter sets in, you have become a little depressed.

Maybe you need some answers on how to improve your life and live, ‘Happily Ever After.’

Is it more money? Maybe you need to know how to earn more money and quit that awful pay check to pay check, J.O.B. and do what you love!

Maybe you want to find ‘love’ and you need some new techniques on how to attract that special someone.

What we CAN NOT DO! change, fix, help, bring a new, or bring back the PAST!! In any shape or form I nor can our company or anyone else, bring back or change the past, so if that is what you are looking for well move on!!!

What we CAN DO!! Assist you in creating the life you have always wanted to live. Take F.E.A.R. out of your life equation (for the majority of the time).

Allow you to ask questions and receive answers to the best of our ability about what you, your needs and or desires are.

Assist you in handling ‘stressful’ unwanted, hurtful situations throughout your life. This is not promising everyday full of butterflies and lollipops, but it is promising the majority of your life being filled with BRIGHT, BEAUTIFUL, BUTTERFLIES and LOLLIPOPS!!!!!

Okay, I am going into overload. Therefore, I am going to stop! However, I don’t think, if you are in Carrolton, Milton, Henry, Oldham, Owen, Franklin, Jefferson Co. Kentucky or Jefferson Co., Madison, Vevay, Clarksville, Indiana OKAY! wherever you are from you won’t want to miss December 8th, 2017 in Madison Indiana!!!! At 7 PM.

No, it is not the full monty of:

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Only because this is a trial run and IF YOU decide to be a part of this first celebration, you will receive a multitude of benefits and a few gifts to take home with you.

However, you must hurry to register because this is limited seating. We have a few seats left and due to our pricing being the lowest price it will ever be, you need to act fast!

You can register several ways…

1. Email- Livelove.teena@gmail.com and say I need two reservations for December 8th.

2. http://www.livelovellc.org/home click on Celebrations. (If you have trouble with the purchase portion let me know.

3. Contact Kentuckiana News at- info@Kentuckiananews.com title it HAPPY CELEBRATION RESERVATION

4. Contact Charlene Kelley she is in charge of registration. Cke96011@gmail.com

5. Any questions email us we will get back to you asap.

I realized after re-reading this I forgot to include the low price for this amazing opportunity.

It is only twenty five dollars and/or forty per couple! But!!!! If you book between now, November 8th thru the 14th, you can purchase the class for 20.00 dollars! What? Yes, one time only and I PROMISE, it will not be at this price ever again.

Why? Did I drop the price for 7 days? Truthfully, it is because I am on vacation in paradise and I am feeling super sentimental. You see eleven months ago today, my life changed forever! And since then my mission is to help others find their own paradise and if Hawaii is only a dream for you.

I want to help make that a reality! I want to share with you techniques that I have learned to have, do or be anything you desire. If a dream vacation is what you want, we will discuss how. If you have a desire and you are struggling with anything, we can help find your block, let it go and assist you in: Livelove & Carryon!!!

God Bless

Livelove

I think I can; I know I can…

Most people have read the Little Engine that could. I know, I would even refer to it while educating eighth graders or teaching sales associates, how to reach their personal quota. However, this past weekend, my experience, cleared the muddy waters or concepts behind this fabulous story!

You see, anytime I was coaching I would say look at the end result and go for that finish line. Which is one hundred percent normal for a coach. As we timed each runner in their event we would refer to their ending time and ask, can you beat that? After all, Track is all about who crosses that finish line first. I would run as fast as I could and cheer, “I think you can, I think you can…Come On You can do it, just look at that finish line, it is right there!!! (Ending with) I know you can! I know you can!”

Exasperated, I would check with John or Dad, for time and let them know where they were and where they needed to be! Does this sound normal to you? Of course it does as a coach you are to bring them up to their best potential and motivate them to complete the task, improve upon the last one and visualize the positive results is your job. However, if I chose to do that type of coaching again I would reverse their thoughts and my technique.

Why? You ask? Becuase although we had several qualify and attend state, once we arrived the goal or end result became overwhelming and several of them struggled.

Back to My lesson and then you will understand. As Eric and I rode bicycles, we would come upon some steep hills. He would shift down to second or even first gear and ride like the wind. (Of course he was demonstrating how necessary it is for me to have gears) Me, on the other hand, would begin pushing, panting, standing up and usually stop mid hill, exhausted. Though, I will say, I never walked and pushed my bike. Instead, I would look right in front of me about two feet and begin pedaling.

Pedaling, pedaling, pedaling slowly sometimes almost coming to a complete stop! Wobbling back and forth…hang on! I would say you can do this, you can do this.

My pep talk or phrase to myself became almost like a cheer/chant/song I would say out loud.

“You already know the end, all you have to see is, two feet & your free!”

I know that seems weird, but in the midst of the struggle it became, “2 feet in front of me is all you gotta see.”

Over and over again I would chant/cheer, “Two feet in front of me is all I gotta see… (push the pedals with all my might) Two feet in front of me is all I gotta see… (again, but a little louder)…Two feet in front of me is all I gotta see!”

I tested it time and time again. We would approach a hill and if I would ride, starring at the top; I NEVER MADE IT, without stopping! However, if I glanced at the top (or end result) I would take a snap shot of the path, quickly glance where others could be, ensure I could avoid any Big surprises and proceed. (All of that preparing was not a strict plan it was just a glance. So if I had to veer off the path, I would still arrive at my final deatination)

Next, I would look two feet ahead of me, glance behind me and take off!!! Push with the right, then the left. Breathe…inhale, exhale, inhale exhale. Focus on your breathing, Teena. And when I thought I couldn’t go anymore, I wasn’t strong enough, I would push even harder and cheer, “Two feet in front of me is all I gotta see!”(again)

“Two feet in front of me is all I gotta see…two feet in front of me is all I gotta see!”

Sometimes I would throw in the full mantra, but mostly I just concentrated on turning the wheels two times and moving two feet.

Isn’t this true in everything we do! I never understood why @The Little Engine that Could, began with, “I think I can.”

I do now! If he had looked at the end result the entire time he might not have made it to the the toys, on the other side of the mountain. Instead he began with just right then, right where he was at that time. He didn’t transition to, I know I can, until he had reached at least one major hurdle and enjoyed the journey along the way.

Anything you want to do big or small! Know the end result or goal, feel it for a split second. Then begin to take one step, then the next. You do not want to miss the delicious journey along the way, so you can bask in the glorious warmth and good feeling at the top.

Back to track. I love track as a sport! Because it focuses your brain to improve you for your own personal record. If you are a coach try not to focus on the end quite as much, but rather visualize the end and improve by only seeing two feet ahead, two days, two hours, or even two seconds!

You can get thru, accomplish or achieve anything you want! If you are depressed, struggling with addiction or just wanting to pedal to the top of a hill, you can do it! The key is to see it and break it down into smaller, manageable pieces!

God Bless!

Livelove

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As we gather more and more information, to provide you with a solid answer on what Livelove truly is and how you can benefit; I have to pause my thoughts/emotions/feelings! I know that sounds weird, but it’s true. The past two weeks actually, the more I meditate, I have to say the last 45 (Almost 46) years have been fabulous! However, since we are living in the now I will say the last two weeks have been out of this world!

You see Livelove was created many years ago and it has been building for many years. Therefore, to narrow it down to a website, that grabs your attention, can become quite difficult.

That is why this moment of knowing, feeling, caring what your opinion is, of our new/not really, company is daunting. It’s not bad nor good, it’s just like will my vision finally come to fruition? Will my message that was given to me by divine appointment and wraps my entire life’s experience into one title, be the right one? Will people understand me? Will I help the world learn how to be or find their own happiness in all situations?

Yet, many of my closest friends always say, “Yes, you can!”

Then I think Teena why do you care!!! You are happy, everything is going your way, let it go! You aren’t helping anyone anyways!

And the battle between strong belief in our new company and subconscious begins. It goes round and round. The what ifs take over, I place scenario after scenario in my mind. Right before I stop myself is when I realize I don’t want any of those negative feelings or thoughts. I am okay…you see I created a vision that was not real, added some negative thoughts from my paradigm, solidified it and ALMOST began to act it out or, in many people’s terms, brought it into my ‘reality.’

The truth is you have to see it in your mind to have it, both negative and/or positive.

Livelove… (I have to add LLC but the title without it is what our company is about, the extra three letters is becuase of silly legalities which I am not a fan of, but it is a must).

Livelove is what you want it to be! Yes, our business is legal, productive and can help anyone, business or organizations to find their happiness, YOUR WAY! You will be able to purchase a class, a motivational speaker, a few products and a program. However, Livelove is much more than a product or a service business!

It is a message! A message of LIFE! it is YOUR MESSAGE!!!!

It is a way for anyone to be happy for the rest of their days on earth! Don’t get me wrong I have down, distracting, contrasting (@Abraham-Hicks) days or moments.

For example:

Yesterday, I drove ten hours, beautiful day, nice ride, great people to talk to, music was fabulous! Butt, everything irritated me!!! I ‘normally’ feel uplifted on my rides. I write inspirational material, sing at the top of my lungs and dance like I am crazy!!!!

Not yesterday!!! I was mean and nasty. A lady tried to pass me in the right lane and I was like oh no you don’t, I don’t play those games, biotch!!!! It was like that off and on all day!

Then when I meditated this morning on my description of Livelove I realized…Do I have confidence in myself to boldly say You, can help change the world or at least those who want to ‘BE HAPPY’ for the rest of their days?

I mean really! Teena, you just cut off a probably, nice lady driving down the interstate! You talked to yourself, you prayed, you cried! Basically, you were a mess!! What makes you think anyone is going to listen or if you can help!!! (Like I said, I was in ‘what if’ mode, all day and negatively I might add). It’s the recognition and how I handled it, is what Livelove is all about.

Livelove is a gift! It’s a message and my vision is someday, it will carry on.

Therefore, as my business manager, media consultant and personal executive continue to be patient with me, as well as my family, all I ask of you is to do the same. I know it may seem silly to ask random readers, Business Executives (waiting eagerly to hire us), and others who are in need of ‘Happy Class’ or coaching please, send me positive vibes and much love and KNOW when this introductory is complete you will have access to a message that has been created to withstand time and will continue to evolve into the beautiful vision it was created from!

The end result will be a semi colon, not to steal that from suicide awareness, but rather to combine with it and do just that pause and carry on!

God Bless

Livelove

Livelove.teena@gmail.com

To my friend in a valley…

You are okay!

Yes! You are okay!

Look up, look up, LOOK UP!

My friend who is looking down…

Look up! Feel the warmth beaming in

The valley is for healing & nurturing

While here, look around & heal

Enjoy your nurturing friends

Bask in the sun like a sleepy cat

Heal, repair and rest

Be grateful for the valley & all it is

Now it is time to LOOK UP!

Your new journey is coming up

Now is your time to plan, heal gather

For the funfilled, scary (at times), road

The road – back up on the crest

Leave your worries in the valley

The nurterers will dispose of them

As you stand up to begin the journey

Inhale & exhale & smile

For it will be fun & as long as

You are following your bliss

Your next valley will not be so deep!

(Notice what punctuation sign is missing?)

Writing Zone

When in writing zone no one else exist. Today has already been a terrific day and it isn’t even noon yet! I had to stop everything I was doing to write on my blog. The topics continue to race through my head for example…”Did you know following instructions can improve your life? or How to know if you are pleasing your partner? or even When I write, I become lost?”

Therefore, you can see why I am sitting down moments before I am suppose to meet some friends for lunch, opening my computer and typing until I can not type anymore. I simply can not help myself. I want to share with you my silly thoughts and hopefully brighten your day.

It is September 12, 2017 and I am suppose to be getting dressed, having lunch with friends, going to the gym and probably working on my new business, “Livelove LLC.” (I will let you in on the Grand Opening as soon as I have a firm date set, I am so excited for this adventure). Anyways, I am now typing away in the ‘writing zone.’ Where no one or anything else exist. There are no worries, fears, anger or anxiety. Just shear freedom. Freedom of thought, Freedom of Speech and Freedom to Breathe! If you show choose you can title your blog as Fiction! Fiction! Fiction! and puctuation, rhyme or reason, shoulds, coulds and woulds are obsolete. Oh I know the English Majors want to control a portion of that statement, Punctuation. (However, it’s true if you so choose, you can use whatever punctuation you want! Or none at all! However, if you have someone read, your writing and they only express what they read, you might want to reconsider)

Anywhoo…As I find myself becoming extremely abundant with new partnerships, sponsorships, friendships, happy relationships, I some times slip off to this sweet spot, my blog and type.

I was asked the other day, “How much would you charge for people to read your blog?”

I shivered at the thought (because they are priceless to me)! Remember, when I started writing, after my accident, I told everyone I am sharing this information for selfish reasons. Why you ask? Because I was given several extremly special messages, on how to create a life full of blissfull happiness, during one of the seemingly worst times of my life. However, my one requirement or agreement was that I would share it with others.

Therefore, I will always continue to share my inner thoughts on here. Some topics are funny others are not, but all will benefit us all.

Back to ‘Writing Zone’ today my thoughts drift off into money = ? Hmmm this is a deep thought and I am not sure where I am going with it, just yet. However, I am in the writing zone so it doesn’t really matter! I can let it flow. I am free, blissful and happy while in this private, yet by choice public, writing zone. I can write negatively about money, I can write how to get more of it? or How it can be both beneficial or detrimental. Or I can continue on how amazing my writing zone is!!!!!!

Did you just feel what I did in that last paragraph? I provided you with a limited amount of emotions to follow along as you read. Some of you, at this point, are frustrated with my bouncing from topic to topic. While others love it and follow in perfect harmony. However, it doesn’t matter which emotion/feeling you had, it was ‘real’ to you.

I know one thing for sure, whatever else I decide to write about, I will be in my ‘Happy Spot.’ My dear friend reminded me, “Once you find your sweet spot you will do anything to stay in it!”

The truth is she is one hundred percent correct. And if you are like me, you probably have several sweet spots or happy spots. When I am with Eric time stands still. It always has! I love being with other people in fact my favorite thing to do is travel around meeting new people. That is two examples of other ‘Happy Spots’ , I have in my life. Being with my children, all  of my family, working on my business the list continues on and on. The trick to this being negative or positve, happy or sad, is up to YOU!

You are the ‘sweet spot.’ You are perfect the way you are! Can you improve your life? Yes,. Can you become successful or find your ‘Sweet Spot’ after all that has happened? It is too late? No, no, no switch your focus right now and your happiness journey will begin.

Hmmmm… Have I gone way off track? Yes, I am bouncing around like a bouncy ball. However, don’t forget this is my blog and the should, could, woulds do not exist, by choice!

Therefore, lets return to the conversation of, YOU are the ‘Sweet Spot!’

Because it is your choice how you feel. Let me explain this in a different manner…Based on your paradigm, your choice of thoughts and how you handle YOUR Circle of Influence which guess who that is? YOU, is your happy/sweet/joyful/loving/best for YOU Spot! No you can not dispute it. The truth is its up to you and how you feel towards, about or through anything in life.

Probably the most annoying question I have been asked since my accident has been; How did you make it through that crazy of a break? Not that it made me mad or anything like that, but sometimes I do want to respond with something crazy like, “After surgery, I looked at those doctors and I said ‘I meant to do that guys, it was just a test from the Angels, to see if I was ready for the life I always wanted.”

Then I jumped up and ran out of the hospital, grabbed Eric on my way out, was healed and I saw the light!!!!

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Come on!!!! I have earned my Expert titles through the school of hard knocks. I didn’t see the signs that say slow down, you are not going in the right direction. Therefore, my healing process was not easy to endure, but beneficial for my life as well as yours. But what oher choice did I have? I had plenty of choices, I just chose to feel better, improve and live for today.

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Next time, you are faced with a negative or difficult situation. Stop, breathe and feel the right or correct decision, that brings you closer to your life long dreams, coming true. I was hard headed and had to take the long way around, but you don’t have to. Find your happy spot or spots and go to them more and more. The more you visit, the sooner they will become your reality.

Be Happy

Find Your Happy Zone

Writing Zone

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