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One two buckle my shoe…

Three four shut the door, five six pick up sticks…you know the rest of the nursery rhyme. I know it sounds silly, but all my mind has let me do, for several days, is repeat nursery rhymes over and over. Jack be Nimble, Mary had a Little Lamb and so on. Why?

One reason, is my baby boy is off to college and I continually reflect back to the simple times of nursery rhymes. Each time I feel a little sad I think of another one, say it, then become a little relieved with a smile and a giggle. The cycle repeats itself each time we dig through an old box or give away some old action figures.

I am excited about the next adventures in our lives. I am estatic while watching Nicholas grow into a beautiful young man, who is following his heart. He has a plan and is sticking to it.

When I become teary eyed he wraps his big arms around me and says, Mom, I love you and it’s gonna be okay!”

I KNOW, I KNOW! I wouldn’t want to have children who weren’t thriving and following their bliss! I know I can’t fix up the house enough to entice them to stay with me and nor would I want that. However, at this moment at 6 AM, I feel like gathering them all up and saying,”Okay, change of plans! Today, we are all going to curl up on the couch and read Dr. Suess. Or hey let’s go to McDonald’s play land!”

Back to the nursery rhymes…Little Miss Muffett, Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall…yes, I know it’s a bit creepy. All I can say it is my brains way of coping with the ‘adulting.’ When I become fearful of the changes, I search for something from their childhood that is simple.

Aren’t these emotions normal? As I read my sister-n-law’s blog “When the kids grow up” or @Jennifer Reynolds Drake on Facebook, I feel comforted and realize, I am not alone. Her last paragraph (which I will share her post after I complete this writing) sums it up best: “And now we can settle in the fact that we’ve raised our kids to the best of our ability, we’ve entrusted them into His hands, and that the biggest growth comes from change.”

I realize change is inevitable. I am evolving to a level I have only dreamed of, in the past. Why now? Because for the past twenty six years I have been in my bliss being a mommy. And YES, Jenny, you are correct they still need me and will continue to call, I know that, but it is a little scary.

As for today, I am continuing to reflect on the funny memories and looking ahead to the next chapter. Most importantly I am enjoying each moment in the present! All we have is Right now! Take time to find your moment or nursery rhyme to bring you to a moment of sweetness and enjoy where you are right now.

One-two buckle my shoe, three-four shut the door, five- six pick up sticks, seven- eight lay them straight, Nine-ten let’s do it again, PLEASE!

God Bless!

Livelove

When the world has you busy, but you continue to find time to write…

Lately my life has been extremely busyI can’t remember the last day I didn’t have anything to do. I have been traveling, building my business, enjoying whoever I am with at that moment or simply enjoying a new adventure, like a BBQ run!

However, It does feel like I have been a little too busy. I might need to take a break for a day. I don’t mean hold up on writing just maybe everything else. Even if I do not post everyday I always find time to write!!! It is my passion. I love all my God given gifts, I have been given, but writing is my all time favorite. It provides me with freedom to feel each emotion and all possible solutions or outcomes.

When I am writing the world seems to stand atill. Almost as if I am frozen in time. I hear the outside sounds however, when I am writing they become extraordinary background music. Motor running in the distance to the North East. Birds tweeting with a different pitch on each chord, crickets chirping an old S-10 speeds down the road accelerating almost like he hopes to arrive at his home before it breaks down and a talking Tom cat named Tommy prances the perimeter of my front yard meowing every step. Yes I have distractions, but I am content if the words are flowing.

Know what makes your world stand still and do more of that! If it is walking, take time to walk everyday. If you love live performances, find more to attend. Enjoy your life by doing more that fills your heart with happiness.

God Loves You$

Livelove

Is FEAR standing in your way of success?

As I wrap up my latest writings that I know are blessed and a gift, I begin to feel fearful. Fearful of what people will say, will my message be clear, will someone steal my ideas and there I will be just back to the daily grind? 

STOP! STOP! STOP! screams the tiny voice of absolute success in relationships, family, money, travel and fun adventures. Yes, everyone feels those feelings. Their mind plays tricks on them just like you. In the past it was my way of life. Ohh what if someone else gets mad or what if I hurt someone I worried about everything. Now I know there is enough for everyone. You and everyone around you can be happy and successful you deserve that and God wanted your life to be like that.

 Whatever story you read religious or motivational you will read about the humans’ happiness and celebration. Also how those who were truly happy where surrounded by like minded people.  

Therefore, when those fear of judgement, critical, fearful voice pops in your head, rigjt before you were embarking on the adventure of a lifetime, stop! Physically go to a mirror or look in your camera on your phone and say stop and shutup! Then smile really big wink and say, “You got this.” 

Then walk away! It is just a way to reset or rip up the weed seed you are sewing. Because remember what we reap we sew…but if we sew and stop the growth; we can replant and reap the success or outcome! 

God Bless!! You Are Amazing!