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suicide? Suicide? SUICIDE?

This picture is on a house boat with Darion Drake and Matt Reed, when they were little. Although his memory will always live on, his physical form was taken from us. Why? Because he couldn’t see a better way! Isn’t it time we show others, there is always a choice. A choice to live. If life feels ‘too much’, pause, breathe and hold on…THIS TOO WILL PASS!

I will never ever forget the moment, I received this crazy phone call! “Teena, Matt has killed himself!”

I rubbed my eyes, cleared my throat and asked,”What? Did you say Suicide?”

“Yes, he is gone!”

(This is not a posting to upset anyone, but it needs to be written!)

I woke Eric up and we both broke down and began to sob. Heart broken, angry, hurt and deeply saddened were just a few emotions, we were experiencing.

You see this was extremely unexpected, because Mathew had been through this exact same horrific experience, with his older brother. He was a teenager and it happened right before his birthday. So you can imagine why we never thought Matt was capable of repeating the event.

However, sadly he did! Leaving his sister, mother and nephew with voids, never to be filled.

Let me tell you about Mathew Reed!

He had a spirit of LIVING! He loved cars, helping others, his family (especially his wonderful nephew). He was a ball of energy. Always willing to lend a helping hand and he could make you laugh until you peed your pants!

At his visitation, I heard the same thing over and over again. “Why? He was such a great person. Why?”

I wish I could answer such a simple question, as to why? But I can’t. Instead, I want to illuminate his life and hopefully help someone else. As I write, in almost ALL of my postings, NO ONE CAN CHANGE THE PAST! I, nor you can reverse what has been done. Yes, you can receive strength to carry on, but once any act or deed is done, it is done.

However, I do believe, my loving Mathew Reed and I can help someone. Someone who is hurting, contemplating and feels stuck.

You see IF we could have stopped this, Matt would probably be preparing for a fun filled night of hanging with his friends. Texting me at midnight to just wish me Happy New Years and laughing about all the crud he has been through. However, none of those events can or will happen.

Sad? Yes! Change it? No πŸ˜”!

Learn from him? Definitely 😎!!

If Matt could speak to you right now he would say, “Hold on. Pause. Breathe Deeply. And LIVE ON!”

It’s okay to feel…anyway you want to feel. But please continue to remember, ‘This too will pass.’

I love you Mathew Reed and will continue to send out your message.

God Bless

Please, I beg of you, help me to help others. Tell someone today, that no matter what, it’s going to be okay. It will work out and this to will PASS!







Depressed? Don’t know why?

First, let me apologize for yesterday’s odd post about politics! I normally do not talk about that because, to be honest, it isn’t a ‘good feeling’ conversation. I realize sometimes those discussions must happen, but do not worry it won’t be a hot topic on this blog, unless it is advice, that all of us can use πŸ˜„.

Ever have those days that you wake up and BAM!! It hits you like a ton of bricks! That sick feeling of (inhale then exhale) depression! Life could be just terrific, but to you it would be much simpler to return to bed, curl up under the covers, close your eyes and forget anything ever existed.

Congratulations! You are human!!! Did you know the most famous of famous and rich of rich, have all felt this way, at one time or another.

As I watched, listened and rewound to hear again the stories of the past 75 years of the Golden Globes, last night, I realized something. Everyone on this Earth has those days. As the cinematography experts, plugged in the ‘wrap it up’ segment of the show, I watched as many exclaimed how hard they persevered to come to this point and they weren’t stopping until they were done!

You know what? That’s why they were there, receiving that award! Because they didn’t say, “How? Or I am not good enough.”

Instead they said, “What and I am good enough, I am BETTER than good enough!”

I will admit I cried through the entire show, reflecting on the monumental times. The times when groups of entertainers, utilized their talents to make the world a brighter place.

Funny thing is, I woke up feeling a little depressed today. As I meditated, prayed and began again, the naggy feeling wouldn’t go away. So I explored why?

Skip this next paragraph if you have NOT been diagnosed clinically depressed…

(Before I explain any further, this is my disclaimer…If you have been diagnosed clinically depressed and have a prescription, continue working with your doctor and CONTINUE to take your meds! I know you immediatly want to argue with me because you hate taking meds, but trust me I know what I am talking about. It is okay you can still enjoy this journey and learn from my writings, classes and or celebrations and YES, I hope someday your doctor says, “You are completely healed” However, until then please continue your regimen. I have some new ones with my leg that ,grrrr, sometimes irritate me too, but it is for my healing, so I continue!)

Why would anyone, with all that I have and how blessed I am, ever be depressed? I asked myself. I have felt down times when something energy shattering has happened. That is a normal sadness…losing a loved one, focusing on lack of, feeling inadequate, you know, the normal sadness or depressed emotions throughout life.

So WHY do we, who have everything and are enjoying life, to its fullest, have these times, where you just want to go back to bed?

Of course, I had to look up the definition of depression…

Is it just me or do both of those definitions combine together to mean…Less Than?

Wow! Yes, depression means less than. Which makes a great deal of sense, even clinically diagnosed, have less than or too much of something which is to the extreme, creating an emotion of ‘less than.’

Hmmmm, could it be a depressed emotional state is as simple as allowing the mind to remember what you have lacked and how less than you are now.

This becomes more and more intriguing to me. If I woke up a bit depressed today, enough to say, “I just don’t feel good today.”

What ‘lack’ am I focused on? I am improving daily, have very few true worries, my family is wonderful and becoming more and more extraordinary by the day.

I figured mine out! Have you figured out yours?

At first I was planning on sharing my ‘conclusion’ as to why in the world I would be depressed! However, I am allowing you to have your own reason. This allows you to NOT have my experience to compare to. Whether your reason is a better reason or not. Because, pssst…your reason is good enough!

Whatever, it is you feel less than about, right now, I want you to go to a mirror and say, “I love you! You are enough and I love you, I love you, I love you! Go ahead! If you are at a crappy job, with a mean and degrading partner, or you are beating yourself up…it doesn’t matter at this moment, excuse yourself, for a minute and say to you, “I love you and I accept you!”

It works! It resets, the ‘lack’ that is deep rooted in your subconscious, to enough and acceptance.

Depressed? Don’t know why? Now you know why. Not saying a little down time, every now and again, isn’t necessary because it most definetly is! However, the sooner you can stop those emotions the better! So begin today…I love myself, I accept and appreciate me! Over and over.

When and if someone is degrading you begin to hum hum hum 🎢🎢🎢🎡🎢🎡 I love and accept myself!!! La di da…I appreciate me 🎢🎢🎢🎡🎢🎡.

Allow the beautiful words to be what you hear rather than the vomit, coming out of theirs. If you are beating yourself up because of lack, STOP.

You nor anyone else can change what has been. No one! Now decide, can I proceed in this environment, reliving the past or accusing myself of lack, for the rest of my life? Psssst, I will tell you a secret, If you want to be happy you must focus on abundance and leave the ‘lack of’ in the past!

So am I still depressed? No, just grateful for the emotion to explore and share!

(This is where we want to do a Seminar on Happiness, next year, let me know what you think?)

Listen…πŸ‘‚you are capable of abundance in life…love, financial and spiritual! You do deserve the best for you and in turn your best will be the best for everyone.

God Bless

My greatest hope…is if you are struggling with depression, you will search for where you feel less than and begin to accept you can’t change the past, so look ahead look up and feel abundant.





Ohhhhh inspired writing…

Although I love these moments, I sometimes worry that I should be doing something more constructive. 😞 oh well, this is where I am at this time.

Anywhooooo, back to my inspirational thought, a little funny a little not.

With all of the turmoil around our government, I would love to wave a magic wand, over ALL the politicians, while in session. What would I do?

Freeze them all, for a moment. Then have little helpers put ski masks on everyone, provide each one with a hot pink jump suit, to completely cover their clothing and last but definetly not least…I would move them to random sections of the room.

Next, I would provide each one with a set of instructions in their hands, simple, yet to the point. (Don’t feel afraid, it’s a simple activity that might, just might, WAKE UP OUR LEADERS).

The instructions will say:

Forget your name

Forget your party

Forget your paradigm

Forget your previous opinion & thoughts

Now sit in this strange spot






Wakeup politicians and parties! Yes, I mean ALL OF YOU! If you still look at people and proudly say, “I am a Republican and/or a Democrat.”

You my friend are part of the problem.

It’s one thing to have a strong belief, it’s another as to support a group of people due to their affiliation, alone.

No, I do not expect a system that actually began in 1787, to become perfected with such a simple task nor overnight.

However, I do expect our new generation of politicians and citizens to begin to evolve, to a higher level. I realize our system must have balance and checks. Parties are labels based on a belief of several. However, I fear we have lost the meaning behind WHY?

Why are you so passionate about claiming your party? Is it because your mean Uncle was a Democrat and you don’t want to be like him? Or is it because your parents told you too? Do you know what they stand for?

I am not the one to ask if you ever want me to be ‘Politically Correct.’ But to be human, kind, caring and understanding, those labels I can uphold.

Then what is my point?

The truth is, I don’t know! That’s why it is called inspired writing. I guess you need to create your own opinion and do with what you will.

However, I will continue to imagine a beautiful scene where I wave my magic wand and pause Capitol Hill, for just a moment! And while I am rearranging the many great leaders we have (to allow them to vote like a human on our behalf), I hope I would have enough time to PAUSE!

Pause, and stare into their eyes, push the wrinkles back a bit, adjust the corners of their mouths to point upwards. And peer into their, unnamed being, only to see them as grandparents playing, moms or dads laughing or as a spouse hugging their loved one.

I will not believe that any of our elected officials began this journey out of greed or to destroy our great country. But I do believe many if not all, need a time to pause and reflect on why, who and what they stand for!

America, we are amazing, unique, the land of opportunity and much more. Always have been and always will be. No matter what, throughout time our historical paradigm will be the Strong and the Brave! Even in down times, we have proven time and time again we will stand strong for this Great Nation!

I do believe we can be the change. Yes, things seem to be a mess, but with a little twist in OUR perspectives good change will appear. How? Hmmmm, I will leave that up to you, I provided you with the vision it’s your turn to imagine it. Just ensure, your change is being kind and understanding.



Yes, of course Livelove will create a ‘Happy’ Class for the White House! Debbie Crawford is up for it!


Just email me and we will help you political leaders, feel alive, happy and/or ‘human’ again.


God Bless

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