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One two buckle my shoe…

Three four shut the door, five six pick up sticks…you know the rest of the nursery rhyme. I know it sounds silly, but all my mind has let me do, for several days, is repeat nursery rhymes over and over. Jack be Nimble, Mary had a Little Lamb and so on. Why?

One reason, is my baby boy is off to college and I continually reflect back to the simple times of nursery rhymes. Each time I feel a little sad I think of another one, say it, then become a little relieved with a smile and a giggle. The cycle repeats itself each time we dig through an old box or give away some old action figures.

I am excited about the next adventures in our lives. I am estatic while watching Nicholas grow into a beautiful young man, who is following his heart. He has a plan and is sticking to it.

When I become teary eyed he wraps his big arms around me and says, Mom, I love you and it’s gonna be okay!”

I KNOW, I KNOW! I wouldn’t want to have children who weren’t thriving and following their bliss! I know I can’t fix up the house enough to entice them to stay with me and nor would I want that. However, at this moment at 6 AM, I feel like gathering them all up and saying,”Okay, change of plans! Today, we are all going to curl up on the couch and read Dr. Suess. Or hey let’s go to McDonald’s play land!”

Back to the nursery rhymes…Little Miss Muffett, Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall…yes, I know it’s a bit creepy. All I can say it is my brains way of coping with the ‘adulting.’ When I become fearful of the changes, I search for something from their childhood that is simple.

Aren’t these emotions normal? As I read my sister-n-law’s blog “When the kids grow up” or @Jennifer Reynolds Drake on Facebook, I feel comforted and realize, I am not alone. Her last paragraph (which I will share her post after I complete this writing) sums it up best: “And now we can settle in the fact that we’ve raised our kids to the best of our ability, we’ve entrusted them into His hands, and that the biggest growth comes from change.”

I realize change is inevitable. I am evolving to a level I have only dreamed of, in the past. Why now? Because for the past twenty six years I have been in my bliss being a mommy. And YES, Jenny, you are correct they still need me and will continue to call, I know that, but it is a little scary.

As for today, I am continuing to reflect on the funny memories and looking ahead to the next chapter. Most importantly I am enjoying each moment in the present! All we have is Right now! Take time to find your moment or nursery rhyme to bring you to a moment of sweetness and enjoy where you are right now.

One-two buckle my shoe, three-four shut the door, five- six pick up sticks, seven- eight lay them straight, Nine-ten let’s do it again, PLEASE!

God Bless!

Livelove

More Determined than EVER!!!!

Today we say goodbye to our sweet God son Matt Reed. Although my heart is hurting for our loss, it hurts even more that I couldn’t help. Suicide is a difficult act to understand, what were they thinking, how could I have helped, was I not paying attention? The questions race through everyone’s minds when this kind of tragedy occurs.

For me, losing Matt in this fashion creates even more determination. I am determined to provide anyone who wants to live a life full of happiness, laughter, love and understanding, I will share all I know and learn.  

My promise to you is to provide you with the proper tools to create a journey filled with whatever you choose. Yes, all of us have tragedy, sadness, negative energy, or incidents beyond our control. However, YOU decide how you live life. Begin today!!!

Each time you feel terrific today write it down. Not necessarily in sentence form. Title it feel good or happy moments, then write them down as they occur. For example: 

MY HAPPY PLACES: 

  • Camping
  • Listening to oldies music on river with loved ones
  • Salon
  • Driving
  • Making love
  • My front porch
  • Writing

As you can see the list is to help you be aware of the ‘happy’ people, places, or events. These do not stop all negativity, but they definitely detour those events. 

If I were to line all the people I know or who I am associated with, who committed suicide, I know without a doubt each one would say, “I wish I could take it back. I didn’t mean to hurt the ones I love!!! I simply did not see any alternative.” 

You see anyone who chooses to take their own life was not thinking how will or do my loved ones feel. Many entitle it selfish, but I can’t. Instead, I choose to use misinformed. Not enough information on who, what, when, where, why, and how to seek, find and enjoy their own happiness!!! 

Life is meant to live!!! Why not choose to enjoy the journey? Will every moment be perfect? No! However, keep allowing, visualizing, accomplishing, setting goals and focus on feeling TERRIFIC!!! As long as you create a habitual way of living in the vibration of ‘being happy’ you will always stop, think, feel the bad feeling then quickly switch your emotions to a better vibration. It can be as quick as a snap of your fingers. Each time I feel down and out I quickly find a pen and paper. Writing is my quick way to change emotions. You will find yours! 

Take time out of your busy schedule today to pause…pause for suicide victims, pause for the loved ones who have lost someone to suicide. Next find a happy thought for you and share it with the world! Post it, photograph it whatever it takes find the feel good vibration. You can actually help all who have been affected by this empty feeling by teaching others there is an easier way and it is much more fun. Teach yourself and loved ones how to find their own happiness, share what you have learned.

Sadly, I can’t bring back the ones we have already lost! However, I am determined to teach others how to carry on. You can help!!! Glorify your loved ones who have taken their own lives by helping others to make a happier choice!!! 

; until we meet again Matthew Reed I will continue to pray, smile and share the knowledge of enjoying life. God Bless You!!!

Carry On and Have Fun!!! 

Livelove 💖💖💖💖💖

Best Sister-n-law

I wish for each of you to have great family member, that just knows you or get’s you. This past Christmas I was suffering a great deal and remember very little about the festivities. However, that didn’t stop Aunt Jenny from planning a head and giving me yet another amazing Christmas gift! 

This picture is the beginning of my brand new studio! Strategically planned and placed are the pieces she gave me for my new business. The sign is Live, pillow says love and it is pink! I love it so much the entire company has formed it’s name around her idea!! 

Before long you will be able to sign up and either attend an amazing event, coming to a city near you or purchase materials and unique gifts/books from my company entitled…Live, Love, pink! Of course it won’t mostly be about the color pink, but once it is completed you will understand the concept 😎😙.

However, I don’t want to tell you anymore about the company because today is about my sister-n-law, who is amazingly in tune with me. Thank you Aunt Jenny for inspiring and understanding me!! You rock!!!

Excited to the point of tears…

Picking up my baby boy has never been so exciting! I didn’t realize until today that we are a cell phone addicted family. Okay so I am a cell phone/ message addicted mom. I have not received a message or heard his beautiful voice in over 24 hours. I know that sounds crazy, but I can’t remember a time that I haven’t or been able to speak with him, because we always have a phone on us. His has been stolen! 

My only hope is that I don’t burst into tears, jump up, and run screaming when I finally see my baby boy. Okay, I know that was a great visual! I won’t do that, gosh I thought you guys would have more faith in me than that. Shhhh I will let you in on a secret, I don’t have that kind of faith either! I am writing to keep my mind off of it. Lolololol!!!! 

Ohhhh wait, could it be? I think I see him Yayayayaya I am literally tearing up. Okay have a great day everyone I will blog later. I have to go be an estatic mommy with tears, screaming, laughter, hugs and kisses too! 

God Bless!!!