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Sundays are fundays?

I have chosen Sundays as my fundays. They have been for fifty two weeks, ever since the beginning of my new, enlightened, fantastic, super, journey began! This is probably going to be a little bit sappy, today, because Sundays are my grateful days.

Therefore, if I ramble a bit, I will let you know when to skip over to the ‘message’ for you to have, keep and do with what you choose.

Every Sunday, that I have stuck to my goal, I have learned so much! From how to have even more fun in living to new ways to feel the terrific and delicious emotions, of all aspects of this life.

(Rambling skip this paragraph if you would like)

If I were to describe my newest feelings, emotions and knowledge, it would be something like this: Imagine…standing at the top of a mountain, at the very tip top, looking down over a valley filled with lush greenery, laughter, movement and the clouds along with the sheets of blue to offer a back drop that creates a peaceful, yet exhilarating breeze, flowing directly towards you. To accept the gentle breeze, directly before it reaches your body, you open your arms and fully accept the cool breeze to overtake your entire body!

In life, we have such a unique opportunity! We can actually feel, our way to bliss, joy and peace.

(Back on task)

As I began to read #The Essential LOUIS HAY Collection, I questioned what I said to myself before, I rolled out of bed? And how many mixed signals I had already sent to my subconscious by noon. Of course I had said my affirmations. I had prayed. I had said a little pep talk to myself. Kissed Eric…Okay all is great! Right? Not exactly.

What? Teena! What is wrong? My mind races to my past, looks for a connection. Nope, been letting alot of that go, so I thought it might have been there, but noooo. It’s not what’s wrong. When I was a little girl, my Baw Baw would whisper, “Sometimes you get a hunch or a gut feeling? You know what I mean?”

Well I now allow those strange feelings or emotion of ‘something’ not being quite right and learn from them. Don’t dismay the fact that we were all born with an intuition which is the same as those weird feelings, my wonderful grandma always talked about. However, today my off feelings were because of me. Me and my chatter to myself.

You see, as I carefully read the words of Louise Hays,

Hmmmm…yes, I think I began my day off okay. I began with grateful, sent great love to all I know, I cooked breakfast…ohhh I think I got it!

So she means, what I say to me, about me, that matters?

You see as I jump off the high dive and plunge directly into the deep waters of entrepreneurship, I have found an entirely new set of deep- hidden insecurities!!! I have literally been doing exactly what my first book was entitled,”Stop Beating Up Your Best Friend! I was beating myself up, minute by minute.”

If you could physically see what I have been doing to me, shew it would be U G L Y! A broken leg would be nothing to the abuse I have been giving to myself. In one writing, Louise questions”What do you say to yourself about yourself?”

I began to collect, by journaling, all the ugly, mean, degrading things I said about myself. I couldn’t stand to go back any further than yesterday! It was too painful!!!!

If you knew me, well you would probably be shocked to hear this! However, it’s true and I am so grateful to have gained this knowledge. You will be relieved to know, I forgave myself. I am dedicating each moment to utilizing the Hawaiian: Ho oponopono prayer. (Please check my spelling on this).

As the day evolved, it was terrific! I continuously repeated I approve of myself, I love myself and I accept myself. Over and over! Said it, sang it, chanted it too. Still, not much change. It almost felt as though my mind was waiting for me to say it again, so it would have a quick response to shut my kind words down.

After a beautiful bike ride and time spent with my husband, I continued the process, in my head, “I approve of myself, I approve of me, myself and I.

By 6 o’clock in the morning, I had probably repeated this 100 times or more since, I took the challenge. I said it over and over, “I love you and I accept/approve of me (talking to myself).”

But I found that this is no different than forming a new habit! Not that it is hard labor, but to change what you say about you, to you and others…now this is tedious.

While fulfilling my Toastmasters role for the morning, I thought before I spoke, I attempted to stay calm and on task. Now almost chanting in my head were multiple ways to say, I APPROVE OF ME, I approve of what I said, whispering, singing, I felt like Dory, instead it was just keep approving, just keep approving.

Has it helped? I think that question needs to be on hold, until a little more research has been completed. However, I do know one thing, I am much more aware of what I was doing to myself than ever before.

I feel super grateful for this amazing journey. Everytime, I write I become more and more invested into Livelove’s mission and/or vison.

Don’t forget we will be presenting a few of our ‘how to’ BE Happy techniques, as well as, share with you, some new and exciting news about the company. Dec. 8th, 7 o’clock, Madison Indiana.

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The Lopsided Cake…

I could have never been a baker because they would have to throw a delicious lopsided cake away, based on principal. However, the truth is I am enjoying serving more and more lopsided, imperfect, delicious, ooey, gooey, cakes. It may seem odd for me to create this comparison to life, but if you stop and think about it, maybe you will see.

In the past I would become so upset over the smallest things. Oh my if someone didn’t like me or worst yet, thought bad of me! I mean someone told me the other day they didn’t appreciate or agree with one of my blogs. I batted my eyes, truly listened to their concern and apologized. No, I wasn’t angry, hurt or frustrated! I kind of understood where they were coming from. (I will come back to this conversation later in the post).

No, I have never been a baker and I am pretty sure most of my cakes have always been losided, similar to a volcano drooping down on one side, unevenly. However, in other ways I was a perfectionist! I expected everything to be perfect. Actually that’s not quite true, I expected, for everyone else, to have expectations, of me, to be perfect! That makes so much more sense, to me.

You see Ms. Debbie’s words of wisdom rings, throughout my head, when someone misunderstands something I have written or stated, “Teena, you need to finish that thought; not everyone knows you well enough to follow the many thoughts rolling through your head. That means you could be easily misunderstood.”

It is true. My thoughts are swirling by the millions and when I become excited or extremely emitting energy in one way or another, the outcome of my words are not always self explainatory!

Back to the point! In the past I always thought I had to be perfect. Although it is unrealisitic nor possible, I placed those restraints on myself. I always wished I could blame this on someone else, but I can’t. It isn’t because of the expectations my mother had, husband or children. Not what the school system placed on me nor the parents or students. It was me! I lived in a perfect world and if anyone messed it up, I would almost fall apart just like a baker would if he/she had to serve one of my slippery sloping cakes.

However, now I just don’t have it in me. Not really that I have slowed down or my thoughts have become less and less. That is far from the truth! I rarely have any particular expectations anymore. I feel myself evolving to one of the richest parts of my life, yet. It is amazing! The feeling of butterflies fluttering in my stomach, when I know Eric is on his way home. The excitement that overwhelmes me when I get to see all my children, family and friends. I am truly grateful and blessed.

I can remember (which I will only remember this for a moment then I am letting it go forever) coming home and being filled with anxiety, stress and aggitation. I worried about how everyone, I do mean everyone in my life chidren, husband, mom, dad, grandma, teachers, peers, students, principals…I worried about! I can’t tell you how many tears I have shed over someone being ‘mad at me.’ If you have ever felt this way or continue to live this way, read on I am about to spill the beans of how it is ‘fake news.’

Come in closer, get real quiet while reading this…IT IS NOT IMPORTANT! Yes, you heard it here first! Perfectionism is not important nor will it add to your life. It is true. Being ‘Perfect’ is ‘Fake News.’ I have meditated this entire year, almost everyday, to gather information or muddle through some theories, so I could share with you! Guess what? I have even tried to Remember why I hated someone (never really experienced HATRED, nor do I want to, so let’s call it disliked their actions). Could remember very little. Almost like when you soak an aspirin to give to an elderly, attempting to swallow. The memory still had a little substance, but not enough to recognize what it was and the end result was no more pain or suffereing from that situation! Wow!!!! In other words, “This too will pass.”

Yes, some memories carry a powerful impact both negative or positive, but the strongest impact is how you felt and how you feel. Instead of struggling or wrestling with the past, go bake a cake! Make it lopsided, oozing with melted icing and enjoy the laughter about your blunders.

It is time to come out of the closet, perfectionist. You are worthy of being terrific without being perfect. Just do it! Drop your rules and regulations for yourself and let us see the beautiful YOU! The VIBRANT YOU! It makes me so excited, I just want to break into song! You know a random song that says, “You are wonderful, be happy, enjoy, mess up and laugh along the way!!!”

Hmmmm I might have something!

Back to the blog posting that might have not been a complete or self explanatory concept, I admit I have imperfections! Thank you for noticing and better yet thanks for reading my blog! As always I hope you are inspired and motivated to live a Happy Life!

God Bless

Livelove

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Carryon

Had to use this picture because all the lopsided cakes I look up were, what? PERFECT!!! Go ahead and try it, type in Google search, ‘Lopsided Cakes’ grrrrrr they were adorable!!!! Lol oh well be happy!

I Love you, Do you?

“Gosh, I love you so much! I love the way you walk, talk, laugh and cry! I love your hair, smile…I just love you sooo much!!!!!”

“Did you know my fat butt gained twenty pounds? I hate the way I waddle. Oh, here I go again stuffing my face with all the guilt feelings of why I love the delicious, savory flavors that were so strategically placed in this dish, for me to feel guilty about! I hate my hair, hate my skin…You know I have a disorder. And ADHD, my parents well they sucked, my kids are even worse. I hate that I am broke, sick and tired of being sick and tired! OH! However, I love you! So good to see you again!”

WHAT????? Please don’t stop reading, don’t stop reading, please!!!! This is an inspirational writing from the depths of my SEA of emotional thought patterns.

Everyone has had a friend like this or maybe it is YOU, that would respond in such a manner. It is okay, don’t beat yourself up over this one. We have all played the victim at one point or another. The fat victim, sad, misfortune, my life sucks, he destroyed me or she is a tramp victim. I don’t care what title you have carried, but I can assure you, we are all in this together!

Here is the eye-opening situation…You and only you are allowed to decide where you are and where you are going! Yep, in all situations. Therefore, the statement he can only love you as much as you love yourself isn’t actually correct.  (I am sure psychologist and my family are like what in the world, Teena has lost her mind! And you might be correct!)

Just hold on! It is not as bad as you think!

I am going to repeat the words I wrote earlier, let them sink in as you read them!

“You and only you are allowed to decide where you are and where you are going! Yep, in all situations.”

Therefore, I love you, do you love you? Is the question. I truly do love everything and unconditionally about my children and if I were, to be honest, I can strongly say this about my family and my friends. I realize that is a pretty strong statement and yes, you might be able to come up with some situations I would have to ponder, but my friends/family can vouch for me my love for them is pure!)

However, I have had to stop and contemplate my love for me! I always thought I loved myself unconditionally. I always thought I could only love someone else as much as I love myself. Gosh, if that is true and my studies (on how I trust and love myself) means I love people only based on the conditions they are doing ‘good’ for me! (I DO NOT! So do not take this out of context like someone who is reading a book and quoting me statements from one sentence, grrrrr that makes me irritable).

So is it true? or False? Someone can only love you as much as you love yourself? I don’t know, however, now that I have collected inventory on my emotions, it is the time for me to begin to love myself! Believe in me, enjoy the same love I have always given. Then, if the statement is true everyone around me will benefit. That means the better I become, the more trustworthy and loving I am towards me, I will have more to give. Spiritually, emotionally, financially and lovingly.

I am sorry, I can’t seem to find the words to wrap this up. I want to continue to ramble about how amazing it is to recognize why I want and desire to love me! How many others will benefit and be enriched…

Mahalo

Mahalo
[Ma = In] + [ = breath] + [alo = presence, front, face]
“(May you be) in (Divine) Breath.”

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Our First Happy Celebration I will post this weekend about what more you can expect, but one thing is for sure…you will walk away inspired, encouraged and wanting more!!!!! Livelove you!!!

 

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Writing Zone

When in writing zone no one else exist. Today has already been a terrific day and it isn’t even noon yet! I had to stop everything I was doing to write on my blog. The topics continue to race through my head for example…”Did you know following instructions can improve your life? or How to know if you are pleasing your partner? or even When I write, I become lost?”

Therefore, you can see why I am sitting down moments before I am suppose to meet some friends for lunch, opening my computer and typing until I can not type anymore. I simply can not help myself. I want to share with you my silly thoughts and hopefully brighten your day.

It is September 12, 2017 and I am suppose to be getting dressed, having lunch with friends, going to the gym and probably working on my new business, “Livelove LLC.” (I will let you in on the Grand Opening as soon as I have a firm date set, I am so excited for this adventure). Anyways, I am now typing away in the ‘writing zone.’ Where no one or anything else exist. There are no worries, fears, anger or anxiety. Just shear freedom. Freedom of thought, Freedom of Speech and Freedom to Breathe! If you show choose you can title your blog as Fiction! Fiction! Fiction! and puctuation, rhyme or reason, shoulds, coulds and woulds are obsolete. Oh I know the English Majors want to control a portion of that statement, Punctuation. (However, it’s true if you so choose, you can use whatever punctuation you want! Or none at all! However, if you have someone read, your writing and they only express what they read, you might want to reconsider)

Anywhoo…As I find myself becoming extremely abundant with new partnerships, sponsorships, friendships, happy relationships, I some times slip off to this sweet spot, my blog and type.

I was asked the other day, “How much would you charge for people to read your blog?”

I shivered at the thought (because they are priceless to me)! Remember, when I started writing, after my accident, I told everyone I am sharing this information for selfish reasons. Why you ask? Because I was given several extremly special messages, on how to create a life full of blissfull happiness, during one of the seemingly worst times of my life. However, my one requirement or agreement was that I would share it with others.

Therefore, I will always continue to share my inner thoughts on here. Some topics are funny others are not, but all will benefit us all.

Back to ‘Writing Zone’ today my thoughts drift off into money = ? Hmmm this is a deep thought and I am not sure where I am going with it, just yet. However, I am in the writing zone so it doesn’t really matter! I can let it flow. I am free, blissful and happy while in this private, yet by choice public, writing zone. I can write negatively about money, I can write how to get more of it? or How it can be both beneficial or detrimental. Or I can continue on how amazing my writing zone is!!!!!!

Did you just feel what I did in that last paragraph? I provided you with a limited amount of emotions to follow along as you read. Some of you, at this point, are frustrated with my bouncing from topic to topic. While others love it and follow in perfect harmony. However, it doesn’t matter which emotion/feeling you had, it was ‘real’ to you.

I know one thing for sure, whatever else I decide to write about, I will be in my ‘Happy Spot.’ My dear friend reminded me, “Once you find your sweet spot you will do anything to stay in it!”

The truth is she is one hundred percent correct. And if you are like me, you probably have several sweet spots or happy spots. When I am with Eric time stands still. It always has! I love being with other people in fact my favorite thing to do is travel around meeting new people. That is two examples of other ‘Happy Spots’ , I have in my life. Being with my children, all  of my family, working on my business the list continues on and on. The trick to this being negative or positve, happy or sad, is up to YOU!

You are the ‘sweet spot.’ You are perfect the way you are! Can you improve your life? Yes,. Can you become successful or find your ‘Sweet Spot’ after all that has happened? It is too late? No, no, no switch your focus right now and your happiness journey will begin.

Hmmmm… Have I gone way off track? Yes, I am bouncing around like a bouncy ball. However, don’t forget this is my blog and the should, could, woulds do not exist, by choice!

Therefore, lets return to the conversation of, YOU are the ‘Sweet Spot!’

Because it is your choice how you feel. Let me explain this in a different manner…Based on your paradigm, your choice of thoughts and how you handle YOUR Circle of Influence which guess who that is? YOU, is your happy/sweet/joyful/loving/best for YOU Spot! No you can not dispute it. The truth is its up to you and how you feel towards, about or through anything in life.

Probably the most annoying question I have been asked since my accident has been; How did you make it through that crazy of a break? Not that it made me mad or anything like that, but sometimes I do want to respond with something crazy like, “After surgery, I looked at those doctors and I said ‘I meant to do that guys, it was just a test from the Angels, to see if I was ready for the life I always wanted.”

Then I jumped up and ran out of the hospital, grabbed Eric on my way out, was healed and I saw the light!!!!

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Come on!!!! I have earned my Expert titles through the school of hard knocks. I didn’t see the signs that say slow down, you are not going in the right direction. Therefore, my healing process was not easy to endure, but beneficial for my life as well as yours. But what oher choice did I have? I had plenty of choices, I just chose to feel better, improve and live for today.

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Next time, you are faced with a negative or difficult situation. Stop, breathe and feel the right or correct decision, that brings you closer to your life long dreams, coming true. I was hard headed and had to take the long way around, but you don’t have to. Find your happy spot or spots and go to them more and more. The more you visit, the sooner they will become your reality.

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Inspire me??

Inspire me, love me, caress me, give me adventure, give me a life, make me happy, I need you, I need…I, me, myself, oh there is a you? 

I know the beginning of this entry is a bit bizarre, but it wouldn’t be me writing if it was ‘normal’. 

As I search for inspiration on this beautiful Friday, I almost become overwhelmed with topics to write about. Then it happened, I realized my topic today is ME or should I say YOU! 

KEEP READING IT’S NOT REALLY JUST ABOUT ME!

As you have probably figured out by now my soul purpose in life is to research, create an atmosphere and educate you on how to be happy! Yes, that is my mission and vision. My belief is that my new knowledge combined with my past learning (critical thinking past students) I believe I can teach the entire world how to find their own happiness!!! 

Therefore, here is the first idea you must understand before anything you learn, from me, can help you. 

Ready? Anticipation building? You feel your very special spirit and all your cells jumping up and down, to hear what your first step is? Okayyyyy….

ONLY YOU, ONLY YOU, ONLY YOU, ONLY YOU CAN CREATE YOUR HAPPINESS. Now that I shouted that statement let me do my little educator trick… (I am whispering like the tiny voice in your head does all the time called you concious) you and only you can create your own happiness no matter what no, if, ands or butts! 

After reading that you are probably saying…”Wow!! Teena that was a big fat let down. I already knew that, but if I knew how, I would do it. That’s why I expect everyone else to make me happy. I am trying to be what they want me to be. I do for them to make them happy why can’t I have the same in return?” 

Please don’t give up on my lessons for you yet!!!! I do understand everything you are saying. To validate my last statement, let me attempt to give YOU some of YOUR THOUGHTS. (If you don’t need validation from me, skip the next paragraph).

“Butt (no I am not misspelling but I believe the word should almost always have the definition of ass) Teena he did this to me. He beat me, he cheated on me, he didn’t give me enough attention. Or she bitches all the time, she is boring, she gives too much to the kids. Or you don’t understand I am sick and no one understands how much I have suffered. My mom is mean. My family is abusive.”

I could literally go on for pages and pages with the statements I have heard why they aren’t happy, due to an outside incident. 

“So how could it be true? How if I have all this baggage or what I entitle- paradigm, could it be possible that only I can make me happy?”

That above question is for both you and I. I always asked the same question. Idk how I just know the answer is YES! It is true you and only you can make or create your own happiness.

Think about a time when you were entering a situation and something didn’t Feel right, butt you shoved your questioning or not good feeling aside. The person in the situation even convinced you to not listen to your own intuition.  Therefore, you, proceeded only to result in a moment of misery or worse depression. That situation or that person didn’t make you miserable nor did he or she make you happy! You had the feeling of, hmmm I am not sure I feel good about this. Yet you continued to persist almost begging for the outside people or event to MAKE or CREATE your happiness. 

It is you who creates your happiness or sadness. Why do you think religions teach “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” 

Or Scientist teach for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. 

Because how you feel is from you and if you feel happy, you will be happy. You will see happiness in others. It is extremely difficult to feel happy and bubbly around someone who is gloom and doom. 

Please do not misunderstand I have had my fair share of low points in my life. I have felt the outside forces pulling me down. However, after several months of sitting in silence mostly by myself or at least in my own brain, I promise you and I create our own happiness! 

I do not know how many more times I will write this message, because it keeps coming up. However, I promise it is the first and only first step you must take or concept you must accept before you can be successful at finding your own happiness. 

To me myself and I- I love you!! Try it…look in the mirror and say I LOVE YOU. Next begin to feel the happy feeling. Even if it is for a fleeting moment you will begin to desire that feeling and search for more ways to create your happiness.